My so called life!

2004-03-21T19:42:00.000-08:00

well what can ya do? things didn't work out so well with sam, go figure. i think i can owe a special thanks to someone for that...gah. other than that nothings changed. my life is extremely hectic and stressful. I'm going nuts trying to figure out this college shit...but other than that i'm happy. really happy. so everythings great I guess...and if its not it will be soon enough. yeah, well i'm out.

2004-03-11T19:52:00.000-08:00

You can tell me what to do,
You can tell me who to be,
No matter what you say
I will always be me.

2004-03-11T19:48:00.000-08:00

If I could change one thing, I'd always think twice
If I could take back the past, I'd never look forward
If I could do everything perfect, I'd never be wrong
If I could love everyone, I wouldn't be human
If I could forgive every wrong doing, I would be realistic
If I could stop worrying about the future, I'd dream my life away

If I could dream without restrictions, I could follow every one.
If I could see everything clearly, I would make the right decisions
If I could touch heaven, I would change today
If I could touch another soul, I'd do it now
If I could remember what was forgotten, I'd fondle each memory
If I could remember I am not perfect, I'd ask for forgiveness each day.

2004-03-04T08:16:00.000-08:00

HAVE YOU EVER~
Rolled Down a Hill- hell ya, I have a hill in the back yard...we roll down it like all summer! jesh
Fell Out of A chair- um...yeah a share fair of time
Cheated on a Game- haha many times
Had SEx- as simple as this question is, its too hard for me to explain...ask if you really wanna know...but according to both of us the answer would be no
LOVE LIFE ~
Are you straight?- DEFINALTY
Do you have a crush, bf, or gf?- leave me alone
What is their name?- I'm sure you know
What do you like about them?- He's honest, I can trust him, we understand each other
Do you want to marry them- oh god, honestly we're freakin in high school, I'm not getting married, but as for anyone else I guess its a common topic
How long have you known them- about a year
How long have you liked them- about a year
Are you in love?- its hard to tell, and I really don't wanna think about
Do you believe in love at first site?- yes
how about second site?- sure why not
Are you confident with ur 'special person'- until the critisizing begins
Can you tell them anything- yeah
Do you let them take advantage of you?- depends on who you ask, I don't think I do, but apartenly a lot of people don't believe in forgiving
What would you do without them- I dunno, I'd be ok, I'm sure
Do you miss them- yeah
Do you spend a lot of time together? not a whole lot, but enough
How long do u think ur realtionship will last? well there isn't much of a relationship there, but I think we'll be friends for a long time.
JUST SOME STUFF
What do u do/think right b4 u go to bed? when I need to set the alarm
What is ur morning routine? wake up, close my eyes, ignore the alarm, wake up again, go back to sleep, mom comes in, wake up again, get up slowly, take a shower, do my hair, get dressed, makeup, find money for breakfast, put the dog in the kennel, slowly make my way outside to the car
*Personal* m,
-Are you straight, gay, or bi?: STRAIGHT-STRAIGHT
-Did you go to prom in high school?: frosh year, junior year and this year
-Do you believe in God?: yah
-What is your religious belief?: lutheran
-Did OJ do it?: um yah. duh.
-What are some of your phobias?: death, drowning, being alone
-What is your major in college (if you?re in college):Elementary Ed, minors in spanish and music with endorsement en early childhood education
-Do you want children in the future?: of course, I love kids
-Do you want to get married?: sure do
-How many people have you had sex with?: gah not again
-Guys or girls?: Uh guys
-Have you ever kissed anyone of the same sex?: um...no thats disqusting
-Did you like it?: probably not, since its never happened
-Do you carry a purse?: yeah, wtf else would I do w/my shit?
-How do you eat a Reese?s Peanut Buttercup?: take a bite, swallow, repeat
-Are you right or left handed?: RIGHTY!
-What is under your bed?: clothes, old toys, barbies, buckets or mcdonalds toys
-What posters do you have on your walls?: none
-Have you ever been hospitalized?: yeah, frosh year got heat exhaustion, same thing my junior year, broke my wrist twice
-What?s the weirdest place you?ve ever had sex?: my room

2004-03-03T08:23:00.000-08:00

NICK...ok it all clicked about those messages you sent me the other night! gah I'm sorry, I was mad. I like Sam, but I don't like Scott...not like that anyway. But not to worry, everythings good. You're my hero! be happy!

2004-03-03T08:16:00.000-08:00

well hi, gah so I got called into work last night so...of course I went. Why would I pass up the opportunity for more money? Hm...duh. I woke up this morning and the sun was shining and the birds were chirping..all that cheesy shit and I get ready to go to Central for 2nd hour and I'm walking outside and its freakin raining and snowing...I wasn't a very happy person, cuz I definately didn't bring a coat. gah...oh well. But anyway, NICK, you don't smell like Burger King...I promise!!!! Lol, and you're not ugly. man, sometimes I wonder about you. Everything else is going fantastic...I got a letter from Dana College yesterday and their going to give me almost 4 thousand dollars for a music scholarship alone...gah. I just hope that Morningside will give me somewhere close to that. I don't want to go to Dana, I just want everyone to leave me alone, give me money and let me go to Morningside. I haven't felt that comfertable in as long as I can remember, surely longer than I've been in high school...I just want to be there. People care, and that is just something that I need. People knew my name after I was only there 2 hours...people came up to me and already knew my name and so much about me! gah its just so much different than high school. so perfect. Oh well, I noticed that there are people who don't want me to go there, I get these remarks about 'well why can't you go to ISU or UNI?' gah whose desicion is it? cuz I don't think its yours! I can't stand sitting in a classroom with 200 other people....or being in a place that only 30 or so people know who you are....no I'm not gonna go through high school again. Good try, but no cigar. Nor do I wanna go to school with more than half of the people in my class as well as with kids from other years. Duh! gah...Liz is gonna help me move into the dorms in August, so that will be fun. And I'm gonna see Sam soon, so that'll be nice I didn't know that he was that cute! gah he has curly hair and everything and he is so much fun...its like a party all the time. I'm so excited....oh um..this is morningside Sam, not to be confused with work Sam. Lol. Anyway, I should pry get started on my final paper for Workplace.

2004-03-02T08:10:00.000-08:00

[`Name] Rebecca
[`Nicknames] Becky, Becca, Ms. Becky
[`Birthday] 09-06-86
[`Age] 17
[`Astrological sign?] Virgo
[`Chinese zodiac sign?] como? I think a tiger
[`Location] IA
[`Sexual Preference] boys
[`Marital Status] single...although I am very content
[`Religion] Lutheran
[`Current Hair color/length] brown, medium legnth
[`Eye color... W/ & W/O contacts] Brown...glasses..i know ;[
[`Height] gah like 5'4 5'5
[`Parents still together?] Yeah
[`Siblings? ] brother
[`Nieces/Nephews? ] hm...I sure hope not...gah nate's on 13
[`Kids of your own? ] Lmao...no absolutely not
[`Grandkids? ] well don't you think that if I don't have my own kids it would be a lil hard for grandkids?? huh??
[`Pets?] 1 dog...we had a fish but it died
[`In school/graduated? ] Senior in high school, but I'm enrolled IWCC classes
[`Rent, lease, or own your home? ] well my padres own my house
[`What do you do for work? ] lmao sears..good life great prices...well kinda
[`How much do you make? ] enough...and I will be getting my raise soon
[`Have any credit cards? ] no
[`What do you drive? ] 89 grandam

Preferences

Favorites
[`Color] pink
[`Number ] 3
[`Animal ] lol, look in the previous entry
[`Vehicle ] avalanche...blue or yellow
[`Flower ] pink rose
[`Scent ] hm...warm vanilla sugar, raspberries
[`Shape ] como? shapes...huh? ok...i pick............Circle
[`Drinks ] juice and pop...and chocolate milk...lol
[`Soda ] Dr. Pepper or Mr. Pibb
[`Book ] hm.hm.....no
[`Band ] I dunno
[`Song ] gah i love music...but the song thing would go on forevery
[`Color your hair? ] I have its not really now though
[`Twirl your hair? ] como? no
[`Have tattoos? ] nope
[`Piercings? ] my ears
[`Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both? ] no
[`Cheat on tests/homework? ] no...lol, Im not in spanish this term
[`Have a crush ] of course I do..gah...sorry nick ;[
[`Drink/Smoke? ] no...well not lately...I don't smoke...gah I can't wait till next year
[`Like roller coasters? ] gah I love roller coasters
[`Wish you could live somewhere else? ] somedays
[`Want more piercings? ] yeah, like higher up on my ear...but mom said no, and I want my belly button pierced...next year haha it'll be legal
[`Like cleaning? ] WTF? are you dumb?
[`Write in cursive or print? ] cursive..unless i'm having a good print day?? lol
[`Carry a donor card? ] no, but it says on my drivers liscense that I am...."don't take your organs to heaven, heaven knows they need them here on earth." --thats from Tim
[`Swear a lot? ] not really
[`Own a web cam? ] nope
[`Know how to drive? ]well I sure hope so...though somedays when I'm driving my head goes...I wonder if my car will know where to go if I don't move the steering wheel.....and well let me tell ya the car has no idea...and doesn't really care if it runs into something
[`Own a cell phone? ] sure do
[`Ever get off the damn computer? ] rarely
[`Hablar Espanol? ] si
Have you ever...
[`Gotten a speeding ticket?] nope
[`DUI? ] no
[`Been in a wreck? ] no
[`Been arrested? ] wtf? no
[`Been in a fist fight? ] only with nathan
[`Kicked someone in the nuts? ] lmao oh yeah
[`Stolen a car? ] yeah...actually its like a game we play...wtf? gah
[`Stolen anything? ] yeah, not anything like from a store..but from yeah nevermind
[`Held a gun? ] nah
[`Smoked? ] nope
[`Crack? ] nope
[`Drink? ] not in a long time, and pry won't for a long time..gah
[`Been so drunk you couldn't remember your name? ] yeah..figurtively speaking, its not like someone asked me my name so, i dunno
[`Considered a life of crime? ] yes actually...duh no
[`Considered being a hooker? ] pry not....wouldn't get me very far
[`Been married? ] NO no no no no no no no no
[`Cried over a girl? ] nope
[`Cried over a boy? ] yes
[`Lied to someone? ] yesss
[`Been in love? ] yes
[`Had sex outdoors? ] nope...outdoors like in the backyard...how romantic...gah no
[`Fallen for your best friend? ] Just bryan...i know i know
[`Been rejected? ] yah
[`Been in lust? ] probably
[`Been cheated on? ] yes
[`Been kissed? ] yes, well no...gah duh these questions are ridiculous...obviously, I'm 17 years old and have had my share of boyfriends thanks...give me a little credit..at least a little

2004-03-01T08:25:00.000-08:00

have yOu..
x. Fallen for your best friend - lol, Bryan, but other than that I can't say that I have...and trust me I don't know how that happened
x. Been rejected - yeah, every day of my life
x. Been in love - yes
x. Been cheated on - yes
x. Done something you regret - a few times

the last person..
x. You touched - Reese, in a non-preverted way..lol
x. You talked to - Pat
x. You instant messaged - last night, Elizabeth
x. You yelled at - my mom, although if I had any courage at all I would have yelled at my friends, but its much easier to ignore it.
x. You laughed with - gah, Liz
x. you had a crush on - Sam from work, not that thats anything new..lol
x. Who broke your heart - well...gah a couple people this year, oh well.

Do you..
x. Floss daily - no..but I brush.

Have you/do you/do you have..
x. Considered being a pimp - well I think Beth and I talked about being strippers once, but other than that nothing
x. Think you are psycho -oh not..well somedays
x. Split personalities - depends on who you ask
x. Obsessive - yes
x. Obsessive compulsive - most definately
x. Panic - definitely
x. Anxiety - yah
x. Depressed - not really
x. Suicidal - nah
x. Obsessed with hate - como?
x. If you could be anywhere, where would you be - In Sioux City with Stevie, Rayanne, and Sam
x. What are you listening to - haha nothing, i'm in Workplace
x. Can you do anything freakish with your body - como? I can do the splits, if thats what this means...
x. Chicken or fish - chicken
x. Do you have a favorite animal, no matter how lame it may be - I like tapirs, they're funny, and they look like anteaters
x. Current Clothes - Polo Shirt and cami with Jeans
x. Current Mood - I'm pretty content
x. Current Music - none ;[
x. Current Taste - Friut Snacks that I just had
x. Current Hair - up
x. Current Annoyance - a lot of people...gah
x. Current Smell - Fruit Snacks
x. Current thing I ought to be doing - sleeping
x. Current Desktop Picture - =well its a school computer so its pretty blue
x. Current Favorite Group - no se
x. Current Book - none
x. Current DVD In Player - well I watched Pirates of the Carribean the other night, but I took it out...so honestly nothing
x. Current Refreshment - pop
x. Current Worry - well where shall I begin...where will I come up with money to go to school? where am I gonna go to school? what if my padres won't let me go where I want? what if they won't let me go back up to sioux city? gah how am i gonna do my hair for work? why won't Sam answer his phone? .........and thie list goes on and on
x. Current Crush - Sam...and I think we've been over it
x. Current Favorite Celebrity - no

Favorite..
x. Drink - Dr. Pepper
x. Color - pink and blue
x. Shoes - sandles
x. Candy - skittles or fruit snacks
x. TV Show - Full house, saved by the bell, cali dreams
x. Movie - Dirty dancing, Finding Nemo..gah
x. Dance- I love pom dancing, and tap
x. Music - anything
Are you..
x. Understanding - yeah, pry more than I should be
x. Open-minded - yeah
x. Insecure - oh yeah
x. Interesting - como? I suppose
x. Hungry - nah
x. Friendly - yah..to most people
x. Smart - I work on it
x. Moody - very.
x. Childish - I'm trying to get over it
x. Independent - yeah
x. Hard working - absolutely
x. Organized - yeah
x. Healthy - actually...probably not, but thats something no one knows or would understand
x. Emotionally Stable - for this moment
x. Shy - around people I don't know absolutely
x. Difficult - definitely, when I can be
x. Bored Easily - sometimes
x. Thirsty - yah
x. Responsible - yeah
x. Sad - kinda...but only when I think about it
x. Happy - for the moment
x. Trusting - yes
x. Talkative - yeah
x. Unique - yeah
x. Needy -yeah

Who do you want to..
x. Slap - someone, i pry better not say
x. Be like - myself
x. Talk to offline - Sam...morningside sam

On you..
x. How do you describe yourself - unique

On friends..
x. Best Friend(s) - Liz, Sam..morningside sam, Shauna
x. Friend(s) you go to for advice - Liz, Todd, Shauna
x. Friend(s) you have the most fun with - omg, this weekend was absolutely the most fun Ive had in so long!
x. Friend(s) you've dreamt about - I dream about band kids a lot, and sears folk..so most of them

On preferences..
x. Chocolate milk or hot chocolate - chocolate milk
x. McDonalds or Burger King - Burger King
x. Marry the perfect lover or the perfect friend - lover
x. Sweet or sour - sweet
x. Root Beer or Dr. Pepper - Dr. Pepper
x. Sappy/action/comedy/horror - Action, Sappy, Comedy, Horror
x. Cats or dogs - Dogs
x. Ocean or Pool - Ocean
x. Cooler Ranch or Nacho Cheesier - cheesier
x. With or without ice-cubes -depends on what I'm drinking, pop and koolaid are nasty with ice
x. Shine or rain - shine, rain makes me depresssed, although its raining right now and i'm muy contenta
x. Winter/Summer/Fall/Spring - Summer, Spring
x. Vanilla or Chocolate - Chocolate
x. Snowboarding or skiing - how about someone teaches me to rollerblade, and we'll call it good
x. Cake or cookies - ice cream cake
x. Cereal or toast - cereal
x. Gloves or mittens - gloves
x. Eyes open or closed - open
x. Fly or breathe under water - breathe under water
x. Bunk bed or water bed - water bed
x. Chewing gum or hard candy - gum
x. Motor boat or sailboat - motor boat.motor boat turn around...lmao i love that game
x. Lights on or off - off

What's your favorite..
x. Number - 3
x. Holiday - Christmas ..birthday :]
x. Radio station - no
x. Place - my room, band room, sears
x. Flower - Pink roses
x. Scent - LMAO Nick from work..hahaha you smelll......like burger king......hahahaha

2004-02-18T08:43:00.000-08:00

so how fun! I have worked so much this week! but its fun, i won't lie. Nick, and Liz, and Shauna have been there, so at least i'm not working with the old crabby ladies. and how cool is this, I got Sam's number from work, he works in the back! so thats exciting. And Nick and I are getting along really well! Other than that nothing is new, I had an interview at Dana College last weekend and that went awesome, and I'm going to simpson and morningside the next two weekends, so thats awesome. Fun and awesome. I get to see Sam at morningside, haha he's trying to takl Stephanie into letting me go with him and his friends to a party that night, so that'll be fun. So, I have school till 2 and work at 230 till 6 then dance till 10...gah, how busy! But its fun, and I'm keeping up so far! so far....but its all good. Anyway, Class is almost over, so you have fun, and I'm out

2004-02-03T08:38:00.000-08:00

well what's new, nothing absolutely nothing....we have two feet of snow on the ground..and now i'm just annoyed. I have 10.5 hours this week, however it is supposed to snow again wednesday night, so I pry won't go thursday...how much that sucks. Well anyways, people are annoying me as usual, somehow somewhere someone thought that i have no feelings and that it was perfectly ok to hurt me, bc of the fact that i have no feelings. haha we're they ever wrong. But i do have news for this person, I like you, a lot...but I will not let you treat me like that, so have fun with your girlfriend...i wish you the best of luck, but give it up with me, you lost the game, so give it up. She's not supposed to find out, remember thats the rule, But sadly enough for you I found out. Anyway, I have been accepted to Morningside, Northwestern, Simpson and Dana Colleges so far and still plan on applying to wartburg...but we'll see how that goes. Nothing else is really new...everythings ok, had enough snow days to declare that Council Bluffs has relocated to Alaska...but haha for you little kids, us seniors don't have to make them up! So when youall are gonig to school till the end of july i'll be at the pool...ahahahahahahahahahaha...sucks for you! 7 months!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and I'm gone!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-02-03T08:32:00.000-08:00

Height: 5 feet and 3 inches
Shoe size: 7-8
Do you or have you ever dyed your hair? Yes
What do you want to be when you grow up? An elementary teacher
Have you Ever...
Been in love? YUP!
Had a food fight? yeah....oh man on my 16th bday Nikela, Beth and hayley and I had a pretzel fight and we woke up with them in our hair and in our sleeping bags!
Been in a fist fight?: nah..well just with nate..but nothing real challenging
Played baseball with a bunch of friends? maybe when I was little, not anytime soon
Fallen asleep in class? haha yeah, english comp..and spanish all the time, psychology
When was the last time that you've...
Laughed? last hour at central
Danced? SnoBall
Hugged someone? Sat..liz
Been happy? Today?right now
Do U Believe In...
Love At First Sight: yup <3
Miracles: yah
Fate: yeah
Destiny:yeah
Guardian Angels: absolutely!

-*-*FuTuRe*-*-
How old will you be when you graduate high school? 17
Are you going to get married? sure am
Although you can?t tell who you'll marry, is there anyone you'd wish it would be? no..absolutely noone
If so, who?: no one
Are you going to have children? sure am
If yes, how many? 2-3
Do you want to go to college? yeah
Which college: well I've been accepted to 4 , but i'm not sure yet
What kind of car will you want to drive: avalanche
What kind of job will you have: an elementary teacher
What?s your expectations for when your 25? married and on my way to a good career
-*-*OtHeRs*-*-
Do you right in cursive or print? cursive
Are you a lefty, righty, or ambidextrious: righty
Do you believe in God? yes I do
Whets your religion?: Lutheran
What do you think of rainbows?: hm...pry not
Do you have any piercing/tattoos? yes
If so, where?: ears..two
If not, do you want any, where?:I want my ears pierced again
If you could live anywhere else, where would you live? arizona
Like milk and cookies?: umm duh who doesn?t
Ever worn black nail polish?: no absolutely not
Girls, what color nail polish do you have on?: silver from snoball
If you could have a 6th sense, what would it be?: reading minds
If you have a magical power, what would it be and why would you want it? to be invinsible
If you could be invisible for a day what would you do? A lot of naughty stuff ;)
Do you do things even when your parents say no?sure do..hahaha take that!
What is your favorite song to "rock out" to? Def Leppard
Ever taken anything from a hotel?: yeah, have towels and keys from florida, az and allstate

2004-01-28T18:42:00.000-08:00

well you want to know whats new? absolutely nothing...I feel like crap, and I'm tired. Which doesn't account for the fact that Grandma is in the hospital. I'm not sure why but it just makes me really really angry. Not at her, maybe at myself. But I just want to see her, I know I can't bc I'm sick, but I just want to. And clearly throwing a fit to ge tthat across to my parents is not worth my time, that definately didn't work. Is it really too much to ask, I'm not asking for a freakin pony, I just want to see my grandma. SHe'll be ok, she promised me. But I just want to see her. And aparently I will be attending school tomorrow, despite my fever and sore throat. Although Nathan has mastered the teqnique of letting my parents stay home with him when he has a headache, I haven't gotten that far. Oh well...8 more months..thats all. Thank God! And dont' worry I didn't see Aaron tonight either, he didn't call..haha go figure. so predictable...sometimes I close my eyes and try to guess whats gonna happen next, and the scary thing about this game is that every day and the same time the same excat thing happens. Maybe this is why we're supposed to go to college, after 17 years life just gets boring...boring or old. The one thing good about the nice old town of Council Bluffs is that everyone is so unbelievably predictable that it just is ridiculous. And I think I just might be crazy, the one person that I like and I try to fix him back up with his old girlfriend...haha...thats me for ya. But good news is they aren't together, bad news my chances pry aren't that good. HAHA story of my life..oh well...8 more months.. :] Thats all, I'm going to bed.

2004-01-21T13:36:00.000-08:00

1. What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before?
well here...if you know me you'd know, and well...I just don't think its appropriate to list them here, so if you don't know ask.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Pry not since I don't remember them at all, I'm gonna try and have more fun, figure out which college I want to go to, and stop worrying so much.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes

4. Did anyone close to you die?
hm...nope, well not that I know of

5. What countries did you visit?
haha well this great country, bc i've never been out of it...haha

6. What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003?
more confidence, better friends, someone who cares about me

7. What date from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
several, the time I spent with certain people this summer...times i've spent w/my friends, all-state, honor band...stuff like that
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
definately making all-state

9. What was your biggest failure?
I shall not say

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
colds, strep, thats pry it

11. What was the best thing you bought?
not sure

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
eh no se

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
As Anne said, our government's. Southern California during the recall election.

14. Where did most of your money go?
food, clothes, family and in the bank

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
All-State

16. What song will always remind you of 2003?
Stacy's Mom...hahaha

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Happier
ii. thinner or fatter? Well I"ve pretty much stayed the same weight the last couple years
iii. richer or poorer? much much richer..ah the power of working

18. What do you wish you'd done more of? Stayed out late, worked more, slept less

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
nothing

20. How will you be spending New Years?
carefully

22. Did you fall in love in 2003?
yes, do i regret it? no...never will either

23. How many one-night stands?
um...well it isn't excately that, but the whole thing w/Reese, Chris and Jerrid wasn't very good

24. What was your favorite TV program?
same as always, Full House, Saved by the Bell

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
haha, no i try not to hate, but not really anyone new

26. What was the best book you read?
no books, hahaha

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
hm...no se

28. What did you want and get?
hm...

29. What did you want and not get?
a guy

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
hm...thats a good one, Chigaco, hm..Drunline was good

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
17, um...Shauna, Ash, and Amy came over and spent the night..haha

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
spending more time with my friends

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003?
jeans, sweatshirt,

34. What kept you sane?
Liz, Shauna, work and band

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
well I don't fancy people so none

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
eh well getting into a war sucks

37. Who did you miss?
hm...pry best not say it

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Liz

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003.
No matter what a guy tells you if he is dating another girl and is with you, you are not the only other girl he is or has been with...no matter what he tells you

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
"stacy's mom has got it going on..hahah" i love it

2004-01-10T11:23:00.000-08:00

hm..well its' Saturday and I just woke up...Nothing exciting is going on, have to work at 4 tonight, other than that nothing new. I got my acceptance letter from Morningside yesterday, so thats good. Have to take the stupid test again and apply to Wartburg, Simpson, and Northwestern. But I still have a good feeling that I'll end up at Morningside. I had a dream last night about going to the campus it was weird..I was mad bc the admissions counselor was an old lady and she always sounded like this really young lady on th e phone. But I think I'm gonna go up and visit the campus at the end of the month. I don't feel well...hm...oh well. Everyone is really really on my nerves. But haha that isn't anything new. But yeah, I have to go get my room cleaned, and get ready for work, so have fun.

2004-01-02T10:40:00.000-08:00

[The Vitals]

x. Full name: Rebecca Lynn Dreager
x. Nickname/s: Becca, Becky, oh and my favorite...Ms. Becky..lmao thanks kids
x. Location: House
x. Natural Hair color: Brown
x. Present Hair color: Brown
x. Eye color: Brown
x. Religion: Lutheran
x. Sexual Preference: um..well when I can
x. Bra size: hm...find out yourself

[The Nosey]

x. Does anyone have a crush on you? lmao theres this guy at sears...Chad or something, he's like 26...but he's real ugly, and really old..so other than that I don't know
x. What turns you on? lol..just about anything
x. What turns you off? people acting like their two
x. Which celebrities do you find attractive? I don't know
x. Which celebrities would you make out with given the chances? hm...I wouldn't be given the chance so it desn't matter
x. Which of your friends do you find attractive? well I'll ask next time I see them...lmao
[The Perverted]

x. Have you ever watched porn? sure, at All-State, Todd, David, Pat, me and our two teachers..sat in one of the rooms, and watched some japanese show on HBO..it was hilarious
x. Did you enjoy it? yeah...well what do you think?
x. Do you fuck or make love? no
x. Have you ever had sex with a girl? hell no
x. Have you ever had sex with a boy? no
x. Have you ever kissed a girl? no
x. Have you ever kissed a boy? lmao, yeah
x. Have you ever gone down on someone? hm...wouldnt' you like to know
x. Has anyone gone down on you? haha
x. Have you ever used any sex toys? nope
x. Do you masturbate? no
x. Do you like S&M? hm....
x. Do you like animals, dead things, children or anything else unacceptable in that way? um.. gross?
x. Are you sexually shy? depends on who with
x. How many sexual partners have you had? hm...
x. Do you have any sexual tips you'd like to share? Do not under any circumstance believe him if he says he would only do this with you...when he has a girlfriend
x. Would you ever make out with someone outside your race/religion? course
x. Would you ever make out with someone who is ugly? well, it depends on what you mean by "ugly"
x. Would you ever make out with someone who is really fat/really thin? hm...letl me think
x. Would you ever make out with someone who has bad hygiene? pry not
x. Are you a kitten in bed? wtf?
x. Sarah McLachlan or Wild Monkey? hm..
x. When was your last perverted dream? well hold on, let me recall???
x. Where is the weirdest place you've ever had sex? ????????????????????
x. Have you done it in public? nope
x. Are you comfortable being naked around people? depends if I know them
x. What gives you goosebumps? pry being cold

[The Morals]

x. Would you kiss someone you don't love? sure
x. Would you have sex with someone you don't love? depends on the circumstance
x. Do you believe in sex before marriage? I wish I knew
x. Have you ever been in love? yeah
x. Do you want to get married? yeah

[The Ending]

x. What is the time? 12.37
x. Did you enjoy this? sure more fun than sitting doing nothing
x. Are you a pervert? no, according to reese..its just what happens when youre in band
x. What did you do most during this survey? um... TYPE THE ANSWERS

2004-01-02T10:25:00.000-08:00

well hey, its Friday...and unfortunately I have go to back to class Monday..oh well. Nothings' really changed. Working, trying to stay out of trouble. Got in a huge fight with Kelli and Katrina the other night at work, guess I was tired of pulling their work, oh well. It sucks though I only work 5 hours this next week. New Years was ok spend the night with Shauna and Ally, ate dinner with her family, then watched movies all night. Dunno why I was so tired, but we crashed at about 4:30. Shauna and Ashley and I went to Chinese the day before that, then to the mall...meet up with Dale, hung with him for awhile, then he took me home. funny as it is, he's been at my house at least 10 times and he still doesn't know where it is. he's a goof. Think we might go out tonight after work, but Shauna sounded like she already had plans, so we'll see. Its nice, this is the most time I've spent with my friends in...well since the end of my junior year. We get that..oh God I'm not gonna be here in eight months thing going, and we seem to shut ourselves away from each other. It'll be hard though, not seeing my friends every day, the same ones I've been with since 6th grade...We'll be fine though. I remember last year, one of the last times we marched on the practice feild...Mandie and I went out there it was weird, just sat there and cried...as corny as it sounds thats the place I feel the safest, on the field...just remembering what it felt like to stand in front of millions of people in Florida, playing our music, our show...lol, and the night before we left, trying to convince Tony that we could just run the show one more time...lol...in the snow...WE marched in a foot of snow...lol. he wanted to go in. lol...oh well. This year has been the best, though...I won't forget. And now the fun begins, trying to convince my parents that I'm mature enough to do things on my own, they're getting better though...mom said she trusts me..and my friends, so ...but I think she wants to make sure I get to do everything she didn't her senior year. lol...HA..I think I made Nick mad last night, he saw me leave to change at work, lol...just had that look like he was mad...lmao. HMHMm.....Lmao my hermano and I are getting along real well lately, his girlfriend is hm..Kaylee or something like that, and all the other girls seem to stop calling for awhile. lol...mom will have fun with him when he's in high school...haha. Well jees, this day is gonna drag on...I have to work in like 5 hours...so I'm gonna go start my homework, lol...thank goodness I don't work tomorrow.

2003-12-28T14:48:00.000-08:00

so here we are again...its um...Sunday and I just got home from work. And i'm tired...of stupid people and just plain tired. Went bowling last night with the Sears clan, Shauna, Nikki, Kellie, Crystal, Sarah, Josh and some other kids..that was pretty exciting in itself. Oh and yeah so my aunt is marrying this weirdo...well he's really not weird and they ahve been dating for a long time. But I don't like it. I miss my uncle..they got a divorce like so long ago I don't remember much about him, but I like him. I just don't want them to be married...its stupid. He has kids, and an ex wife...she has an ex husband. Its just too weird. She's almost forty. I don't like it. I don't know why, and I don't care, but I don't like it. SO thats bout all thats new..I just figured out that i have a paper due the first day we go badck, and I don't like that either...but its lall good i suppose.

2003-12-15T08:06:00.000-08:00

last book you read: one last wish
last movie you saw: Last Samari
last movie you saw on the big screen: same one
last phone number you called: Liz
last show you watched on TV: Full House
last song you heard: Someday--Nickleback
last thing you had to drink: Pepsi
last thing you ate: Ramon Noodles
last time you showered: on my way
last time you cried: hm...like two or three nights ago
last time you smiled: right now :)
last time you laughed: last night..lol
last person you hugged: Mandie
last person you kissed: oh goodness..thats a tossup...Reese...but its nothing, its always nothing..lmao
last thing you said: why can't you get up and turn the heat on?..why do I have to walk upstairs..you're right there??? to my dad..goof
last person you talked to online: John
last person you talked to on the phone: my mom
last thing you smelled: moms candle
last CD that you bought: dunno
last song you sang: dunno
last thing you laughed at: my life..lmao..no I dunno

PRESENT
what's in your cd player: a burned CD
what color socks are you wearing: none
what's under your bed: papers
what time did you wake up today: oh goodness Dad woke me up at like 10
current clothes: my Team Reedy shirt and hello Kitty pants
current favorite article of clothing: clothes and sweatshirt
current annoyance: people
current smell: my perfume
current taste: them ramon noodles
current longing: to get out of the house
current desktop picture: some tropical shit
favorite music artist: nickleback...theres more but i don't remember
current book: none
current worry: none
current hate: being cold!

FUTURE
where do you want to go?: when? I'm going to school in Sioux City in like 7 or 8 months
what is your career going to be: elementary teacher
where are you going to live: in a house
how many kids do you want: a couple of my own, adopt two hopefully?
what kind of car will you have: white avalanche
favorite physical feature of the opposite sex: eyes
favorite place to be: with my friends
least favorite place: alone
strong in mind or strong in body: mind
time you wake up in the morning: if I am going to school...6 45
do you believe in an afterlife?: I'm going to heaven..thats all I know
how tall are you? 5'3
current favorite word: I dunno
favorite book: no se
one person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: my great grandma
a random lyric: "How the hell'd we wind up like this"
DO YOU...
- smoke?: no
- do drugs?: no
- drink?: if you know me..youd know
- have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: let me get back to you in awhile
- have a dream that keeps coming back?: nah
- play an instrument:clarinet, bass clarinet, and on a good day alto sax
- believe there is life on other planets?: sure
- read the newspaper?: not really
- have any gay or lesbian friends?: a couple bi
- believe in miracles?: sure, why not
- consider yourself tolerant of others?: yeah
- consider police a friend or foe?: yeah
- like the taste of alcohol?: suppose
- go to or plan to go to college?: yeah
- wear hats?: sometimes
- hate yourself?: sometimes
- wish on stars?: not really anymore
- like your handwriting?: on a good day
- have any bad habits?: yeah
- trust others easily?: usually
- like sarcasm?: in some cases
- sing in the shower?: not so much anymore

2003-12-11T08:08:00.000-08:00

well...um yeah...so I talked to aaron and well that went absolutely nowhere...go figure huh? I'm tired of trying, he'll talk when he's ready and in the mean time I'll just forget about it. I miss Nick though, its the weirdest thing when we worked together on Sunday I was getting ready to clock out and he...i can't explain it. I just hate it, life would be just great if he'd just say you know what I don't like you and thered never be a chance for me to like you, but he wont. I know he likes me...you just don't act like that if you don't. its weird...maybe I'm making something out of nothing ...again. But it is nice, to have something to look forward to when I come to work, and I dunno...we're just so happy when we get to talk to each other. It's weird...he talks to me in this real quiet voice, calm...kinda like "don't worry I'm right here" He was in the break room with me and he like moved to sit next to me. theres just something about him thats comforting...I know I'm safe. But what can ya do...when he's been dating his gf for the past two years. Not much huh...? oh well. its the story of my life. So get this...I'm half awake walking in the halls this morning and I see oh guess who.....yeah Jerrid...and Alicia Mose...WTF? I'm not jealous don't get me wrong, I wouldn't go back out with him for a million bucks, but jeez....its like he claims girls that don't know a damn thing about him...its quite disqusting actually. not till they find out that he's been arrested and in jail more times than I've even seen a jail....deals drugs...and distributes alcohol to minors....oh well. Not that I would have broken up with him for those reasons, but it surely doesn't help the cause. eh well anyway, workplace is almost over...so later

2003-12-04T18:00:00.000-08:00

aight its been days, no no months since I've written. Well not much has changed, I've been working like crazy, made All-State and getting ready for honor band. thats about it. you know what my life is so awesome right now, its like some kinda crazy dream...imagine everything going perfect. there are days that i walk around in a complete days, wandering from place to place...and cry myself to sleep. it varies, everything varies from day to day. or even minute to minute. I'm happy, depressed....just want to sleep. Its better than anything else though, so I don't mind. I just listen to the same song over and over and over again before bed each night and toss and turn till all hours of the morning. my heart is still in my stomach...its hard to breathe a lot. sometimes I forget where I am...I thought I had a lot of support, Liz...she knows everything that I'm going through, she just pushed me away, said I need to stop. They help, they do, and I know she cares...its just hard, I can't just stop...I need to, i dunno..i need something. and i got up th eother morning and said..no no if I just lay here I don't have to deal with anything Ill just go back to sleep and everything will be aight. nope, I realized I had to pick up shauna...so i woke up. I don't know what I want, so I eat..and I hate eating...and yeah i know i need to eat...but none of you understand...I hate eating. maybe I do know what I want...Id like for someone to hold me and tell me everythings going to be ok, and stay with my before I fall sleep...thats what I want, but who's to say that If i had that i wouldn't push it away. i miss it...him...everything. i had nothing with him, nothing at all...but i miss it. Now that I think about things I didn't really like it at all...the tounge down my throat, sloppy kisses, and my mind was a blur...bc it didn't make sense...him...with me...just didn't add up. and i'm not saying that because of who his friends are and my friends we can't make sense...it really didn't feel right. And I realize...that i made something out of nothing, wished too much, had too high of expectations...go figure. I wanted it..him so bad...I was willing to do anyuthing for him. anything...thats too much. anything is too much for a 17 year old to give up. but I did, and I threw a perfectly good relationship out the window bc I was scared. well anyway, schools fine...tucker center is awesome. I'm in a fiveth grade class in Edison on wed. and they are great. Still at IWCC on thursdays and elemen. teach. aide every day at central...its great. all A's and one B on report card...3.758 gpa...

2003-08-30T09:46:00.000-07:00

aight well i said i wasn't going to write in this thing again, but i have nothing better to do. so i suppose i will. school is going awesome, my classes are great, and tucker center is cool. i pretty much jus like being able to leave when i want. Dance starts next week, and i saw my babies and day care this thursday. so things are going pretty well. it could be better, but it could be worse too. liz is so awesome, i'm so glad there is someone who know's excately what is going on and excately how i feel. i saw nick last night, but didn't have time to stop, so that was pretty upsetting...oh well, i'll pry see him this weekend sometime hopefully. cristyn and clay broke up...which isn't too good, but she's gonna wait for Todd to come home from wherever he's stationed. and it sure sounds like todd really likes her from what i read. so i'm happy for her, she deserves someone that she can trust. oh by the way these are sears folk, for you kids who are lost. and ashley's gonna hang with us soon! hopefully...and who knows maybe liz and i can finally get up enough courage to smack him in the face...lmao who knows? well i'm going to go work on my homework for child care...adios

2003-07-30T14:45:00.000-07:00

aight kids...latest news from band camp, we look freakin awesome. no joke, if you don't belive me see it for yourself. We have LINES and DIAGONALS. and we can march in them! And our freshman are smokin! Oh jeez, we're so excited. Bluford rolled out the sprinkler today, lmao...we gotta run through that...which was exciting. AND we were so awesome this morning that he let us go to lunch at 11:30! thats so crazy! Shauna and I took Chelsea, Ashley and Chris to chinese and then we rolled on over to the mall to say hi to nick..then we rolled on to my casa to pick up a water bottle, then flew down to the school! and we start learning drill tomorrow! Oh and Carissa, and Kristine, Hotlips, JR, Shannon and Ashley all came to see us today! you know whats weird...when Carissa was our section leader four years ago, we were freshman! thats scary~well neways i'm gonna hook myself up with some water and go lay down for a bit. lata playa.

2003-07-25T12:19:00.000-07:00

Hit someone forcefully: i'm not sure, ok well yah my brother
Seen "Are you Afraid of the Dark": oh jeez, i totally forgot about that..yeah actually me, heidi (neighbor) and nate and I did every day after school
Thrown anything at a moving car: haha that reminds me of the story john told me about when they went to the ozarks they threw rocks at other cars
Been in a fist fight: nah
Laughed so hard you cried: haha yeah
Hit an animal in the road? oh jeez no
SKIPPID SCHOOL? haha..of course
BEEN ON A SUBWAY? no but thatd be fun
CHEATED ON A TEST? sure
SMASHED SOMEONES HALLOWEEN PUMPKIN? haha smashing pumpkins! haha...naw
EGGED SOMEONES HOUSE? nah
GOTTEN A COMPUTER VIRUS? yeah
HUGGED SOMEONE? course
KISSED SOMEONE? yeah, oh jeez we've been passed that..goodness these are some crazy questions
FAILED A TEST? haha yeah
FLUNKED A GRADE? no that I haven't done
MADE AN F ON YOUR REPORT CARD? no siree!
BOUGHT SOMETHING YOU THOUGHT WAS REALLY UGLY B/C SOMEONE THOUGHT IT WAS CUTE OR LOOKED GOOD ON YOU? no i don't think so*
LIED ABOUT WHAT YOU THOUGHT ABOUT SOMEONES HAIR-CUT OR NEW ITEM OF CLOTHING? yeah, well depends on the person
BEEN TO ALTERNATIVE? huh? come again?
OFFICE? ABOUT HOW MANY TIMES SINCE YOU STARTED SCHOOL? oh...aight, thats one question i dunno i've never been really

Other

Who do you sit with at lunch: my friends fool...nah i sit with my teachers!.
Do you think Justin Timberlake is hot or not: um...no
Who gave you a Valentine card this year: my friends
Favorite shoes you own: my creamish ones
What is something you wish you could have that someone else has: no
Make-up or none:yes
Do you believe we landed on the moon: we did! thats exciting! you gotta tell me these things!
What are you wearing now: work clothes.
What song is stuck in your head: "no se
How old are you mentally: mentally? huh? come again?
Describe yourself in 5 words: no
Do you remember your dreams: a lot of the time, but sometimes I forget them
Do you sleep with one pillow or two: nah i sometimes use one...jus before i fall asleep but then its on the floor
Do you like school: yeah actually I do
Whats your fave subject: band n lunch
Do you have a religion: luthern...christian...i believe and all
Do you practice it: no i don't go to church but that doesn't mean i don't believ ein it
Does death scare you: yeah
Do you watch tons of tv: if i have time.
Whats your fave band: no
Name 3 cds that youve bought in that last year: no thanks
Are you a saver or a spender:in the middle
Can you live without the microwave: no...no thatd not be good
Would you rather eat sandwiches or pasta for the rest of your life: pasta.
Football or rugby: football
What do you think of guys with nail polish: no thas not cool
Favorite book: no se
Did you read Fear Street books:no
How about Sweet Valley High: sure did
Babysitter's club: Yes! In elementary school, I was OBSESSED with those books.
Goosebumps: I've read a few.
Favorite show on nickelodeon: no se don't remember
Favorite cereal: lucky charms
Do you think the grinch movie starring jim carrey was a waste of money: eh..no that was a neat movie
What do you want for your birthday this year: a boy friend
What movie could you watch a million times and never get tired of: chicago, or drumline
What movie do you hope you never see again: no
What is the one thing in the world that just looking at it makes you vomit, or come close to it: nope thanks though
Do your clothes match: yeah though the end of the last school year i was getting pretty bad at that
Have you lived in the same house your entire life: no
If you won the lottery, what would you do: adoot two kids
How old is your tomagotchi: haha...those where fun
Ever seen a Beatles film: nopers
WHAT INSTRUMENT DO YOU PLAY? OR WISH YOU DID? I play the clarinet, bass clarinet and in a good day the sax
ARE YOU THE TYPE OF PERSON WHO WHOULD SCREAM "NO, I WILL NOT MAKE OUT WITH YOU" IN A QUIET PLACE? um..no pry not
DO YOU GET INTO MUSIC? HOW? yes no
DESCRIBE YOUR ROOM? if you wanna know come over
WHAT DO YOU WEAR WHEN YOU "DRESS UP"? clothes??
HOW MANY POSTERS DO YOU HAVE ON YOUR WALL? WHAT ARE THEY OF?nope i don't thanks
HOW MANY PICTURES DO YOU HAVE POSTED IN YOUR ROOM? oh jeez a lot
WHAT DO YOU SAY WHEN YOU STUB YOUR TOE? ow
DO YOU STILL GO TRICK OR TREATING? lmao yeah
DO YOUR EYES CHANGE COLORS? no
SPIT OUT A LYRIC FOR ME AND TELL ME WHO SINGS IT AND WHAT SONG IT IS? come give me a huuuuggggg...50 cent
WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU DO WHEN YOU GET HOME? say hi mommy and hi daddy and say molly did you miss me??
WHAT IS IN YOUR POCKET? what pocket?? where/
WHAT TIME IS IT? 2:30
WHO HAS THE SAME B-DAY AS YOU? dunno..oh wait Trisha does
AROUND HOW MANY CD'S DO YOU OWN? no se

FOR GIRLS TO FILL OUT ABOUT GUYS

PUNK OR PREP? in the middle
SPORTY OF COMPUTER DUDE? middle
HAIRY OR SMOOTH? oh..jeez long and curlly like dales!
WHAT RELIGION? oh don't ask me a quesiton like that! that makes me so mad..religion doesn't matter
HAIR COLOR? jus hair would be good
TEETH COLOR? how bout clean?
EYES? big
CAR OR TRUCK- oh theres something to like someone for
COLOR OR CAR/TRUCK? jeez
SPORT HE'D PLAY? eh i don't like these quesitons
BOXERS OR BRIEFS? neither
TAN OR FAIR?tan
FRECKLES OR NONE? it doesn't matter!
LIKE ALL THE OTHER GUYS, OR DIFFERENT? eh guys are guys

2003-07-25T10:43:00.000-07:00

hey kids...went to band last night..that was super awesome. everybody did really good, haha I think we even impressed Bluford. take that! This Kelsey girl whos new..was really awesome. And well guess what?? band camp is in 3 days. You have no idea how excited I am! i have to go to walgreens to get that notebook thing and some strings..;]. band is great! well anyway then after band I went to shauna's with her and amanda. oh jeez it was crazy last night! Crazy but good! well today I have to work at 4...and Nick's gonna be there! I'm so excited, his birthday was yesterday! but yeah, we get paid, fo real this time tonight! and oh this weekend will be good! but amanda's leaving sunday..and thats not cool..but what can ya do. anyways, I jus got on to finish talking to John and he's gone now, so I'm out. lata.

2003-07-24T08:06:00.000-07:00

1. Name: Becky
2. Natural Hair Color: brown
3. Hair Color Currently: brown with blondish highlights
4. Eye Color At Birth: brown
5. Eye Color Currently: brown
6. Height Currently: 5'3
7. Contacts or Glasses: glasses
8. Birthdate: sept.6
9. Sign: virgo
10. Current Age: 16
11. Parent's names: Lori and Mark
12. Sibling's name: Nathan and Shauna..oh wait jus most of the time lmao
13. Location: Council bluffs, IA
14. where'd 14 go? :.....
15. Current Grade: senior
16. GPA.:3.5
17. College Plans: Wartburg or Simpson..somewhere close enough
18. Planned College Major: Elementary Education
19. Planned College Minor: Spanish and Sign Language
20. Any Piercing: just in my ears
21. Any Tattoos: nah

*Social Life*

1. Best Girl Friend(s): Shauna,Leslie
2. Best Guy Friend(s): Justin, John, Aaron
3. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: nah...well almost but we don't need titles or shit like that
4. If No, Current Dating Partner: haha..aint no thing
5. Hobbie(s): school, band, hanging with my friends...dancing, jus bout anything
6. Pager: haha that reminds me of sears..i won't page anyone over the intercom bc i'm too scared
7. Are You Center Of Attention Or the Wallflower: how about in the middle?
8. What Type Automobile Do You Drive: Grand Am
9. What Type Automobile Do You Wish You Drove: Blue Avalanche
10. Would You Rather Be With Friends Or On A Date: friends
11. Where Is The Best Hangout: Band room or well..jus anywhere with my friends
13. Where Do You Attend Church: nah...but I still believe in that stuff...for those of you who think I don't have any morals or values
14. Do You Like Being Around People: sure do!

*Who...?*

1. Have You Known The Longest: hm...not sure pry Bren now that I think bout it
2. Do You Argue The Most With: i wonder??
3. Do You Always Get Along With: Shauna, Leslie, Brenda, well now that I think most people and I don't fight..most people
4. Is The Most Trustworthy: Shauna, Bren, Les
5. Makes You Laugh The Most: Shauna
6. Has Been There Through All The Hard Times: Shauna
7. Always Has A Man/Woman: hm...I dunno we all go through those pretty quick
8. Is The Most Sensitive: pry me
9. Has The Coolest Parents: Shauna..I love Danny!
10. Has The Coolest Sibling(s): Brenda....aw...Chelle and Rick are awesome! not siblings but eh close enough
11. Is The Most Blunt: huh come again? we don't talk like that up her
12. Is The Shyest: pry me
13. Is The Most Outgoing: haha Amanda fm TX is..but its awesome
14. Is Most Rebellious: Junior
15. Is Most Conservative: oh jeez....none of us really are
16. Is Most Likely To Become Famous: OMG>Blake Christenson...I love him so much!
17. Is Most Likely To Become Rich: pry Justin
18. Is Most Likely To Wind Up In Jail: haha i dunno, but I really wanna climb the water tower one day
19. Is Most Likely To Have A Million Kids: thatd be me
20. Always Wears A Smile: most of us do
21. Is Smartest: we are all pretty smart
22. Who Has The Biggest Attitude: oh mutha fucka we all have big attitudes
23. Without Thinking About It, Who Do You Think Would Die For You?: I dunno...maybe Shauna...dunno though
24. Complains The Least: no se
25. Biggest Flirt: depends on the day
26. Needs A Good Man/Woman: haha I guess thats most of us
27. Never EVER Betrayed you: Shauna
28. Biggest Pimp: haha justin..lol
29. Biggest Wannabe: i dunno
30. Biggest Player: haha most of my friends aren't..lol
31. Nicest: Shauna
32. Biggest Jerk(s):nah

*Personal*

1. Who Is Your Role Model: friends and parents
2. What Are Your Pet Peeves: ignorant people, and hypocrites
3. Have You Ever Been In Love:sure have
4. Have You Ever Liked Someone You Had No Chance with?: yeah
5. Have You Ever Cried Over The Opposite Sex: yes
6. Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After?: no I really don't like saying that cuz well from what I see the people who I like don't have much in common
7. Have You Ever Lied To Your Best Friend(s):yes...not recently though
8. Ever Wanted To Get Revenge on Someone Because They Hurt You: FUCK YES!!
9. Ever Been Cheated On:nah
10. Ever Said I Love You To A Significant Other: yes
11. Rather Be Dumper Or Dumped: eh...how bout neither
12. Rather Have A Relationship Or A "Hookup": hookup..i know that sounds bad..but ask bc it makes more sense if you know why
13. Want Someone You Don't Have Right Now: yeah
14. Ever Liked Your Best Guy/Girl Friend: yes
15. Do You Want To Get Married: sure..will you marry me??
16. Do You Want Kids: so bad..yes I do...not now though don't worry
17. Do You Believe In Psychics: sometimes
18. Do You Believe You Know The Person Whom You Will Marry At This Point In time: yeah I know I do
19. What Is Your Favorite Part Of Your Physical Being: no se
20. What Is Your Favorite Part Of Your Emotional Being: everything...I don't have anything bad about that that I see, other than falling for guys I could never have...though were getting better at that
21. Are You Happy With You:yeah
22. Are You Happy With Your Life: oh yeah
23. Are You Scared Right Now? nah...well a lil but nothing real bad
24. If You Could Change Something In Your Life Right Now, What Would It Be: someone actually saying they care and meaning it

*Favorites*

1. Sports Team: nah
2. Room In house:my room
3. Girl's Name: Emma, MiKayla, Alisha, Ana
4. Guy's Name: Daniel, Joseph, Michael, Isaiah,
5. Person to talk to about your problems: Shauna
6. Song: hm..that one by daniel bettingfeild..or who ever that is
8. Actor/Actress: oh no se
9. Beverage: i reeally am craving some red koolaid right about now
10. Candy: skittles
11. Family Member: all of em
12. Salad Dressing: Ranch or Dorthy Lich
13. Blanket/Stuffed Animial:my pink blanky and my angel bear
14. Quote From A Movie: haha "You made me ink"
15. Day of The Week: Used to be Sunday, now its Friday...ok this guy before me put that...n I was a little confused..but its um...Thursday here
16. Color: pink and blue
17. Perfume And Cologne: no se
18. TV Show: oh no...saved by the bell is on right now
20. Fast Food Place: no se..pry chinese
21. Video Game: no i like the mario brothers one
22. Teacher: huh? are you crazy
23. State: haha no
24. Store: Sears..are you lost?
25. Clothing: jus bout anything
26. Possession:eh
27. Vacation Spot: jus bout newhere
28. Person To Give Advice: anyone who will listen and not critisiz me
29. Person To Get Advice From: shauna

*The last 48 hours have u.....?

1. Cried: hm...last night when reese talked to me
2. Bought Something: yeah food at spaghetti works
3. Gotten Sick: yeah, hate being a girl
4. Sang: yeah
5. Eaten: yeah
6. Been Kissed: no
7. Felt Stupid: quite a few times
9. Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved Them, But Didn't: no..no no no..and I won't make that mistake
10. Met Someone New: nope
11. Moved On: from what? donde estas? no se...well no..tried but no
12. Talk To An Ex: no
13. Missed An Ex: no nah hell no
15. Had a Serious talk: yes
16. Missed Someone: yes
17. Hugged Someone: no

2003-07-23T21:41:00.000-07:00

aight, how ya be? I'm absoultely wonderful...shauna, amanda, and i went to the old market tonight, which was freakin awesome. Aw..and we saw finding nemo on the drive in the other night...since none of us had ever been. didn't find that many hot guys...oh well. I really wanna hang out with John and his friends, but I haven't talked to him in awhile..so maybe soon though. oh well i'm in a bitchy mood right now, so I just wanna say to all of you stuck up people round here that I've done proved ya all wrong this summer. You guys thought I'd never become anyone or mean anything to people round here...and well I got news for ya, obviously I have. I'm so sick of people thinking they're all that bc they're pretty or know a lot of people. Pretty means nothing...people know nothing. if you are tht ignorant i don't need you in the first place...ok i'm done...sry pry none of that made sense but it does to me...sso i'm out. luv ya

2003-07-22T11:06:00.000-07:00

Lmao ok heres brenda's newest question

Soccer B7: Becky are you sexually frusterated?
dancerz2004: haha..sure why not
Soccer B7: LMAO

that was pretty funny...and amusing for all of you who need to know everything about my sex life. Which by the way is non-existant. Though you all have your own opinions about that don't ya! HAHA too bad I don't give a damn. Well my lazy ass is gonna go upstairs and eat before I head to work..so I'm out. Luv ya

2003-07-22T11:03:00.000-07:00

last kiss: last night! not too long ago, by no one any of you care about
last library book checked out:oh jeez I have no idea
last movie seen: I watched something on lifetime at 11 last night
last book read: hm..I read 3 babysitter seriers books on vacations
last cuss word uttered: mutha fucka, haha when I was talking to John last night
last beverage drank: hm..a sprite at the game
Last Food eaten: popsicle
last crush: you all know so don't ask
last phone call: hm...haha i dunno but my bros gf called and i hung up on the little witch
last tv show watched: saved by the bell..haha
last time showered: last night
last shoes worn: hm..yesterday i wore...no wait oh yes I wore my sandles to the game
last cd played: a burned one
last item bought: my clothes on vacation
last downloaded: something from 50 cent
last annoyance: friends
last disappointment: friends
last soda drank: sprite
last thing written: email to kids about band
last key used: d
last word spoken: get out of here, to my brother..which he did
last sleep: hm..i went to bed about 3ish and woke up at noon this morning
last im: ash
last weird encounter: my mom called to get me outa bed, which has been a long time since that has happened
last time amused: haha i jus ate a popsicle what are you talking about?
last time wanting to die: its been awhile
last time in love: right now ;]
last time hugged: my baby and courtney last night
last time scolded: when mom called earlier
last lipstick used: sparkly stuff i wore last night
last bra worn:unless you plan on coming over her in the next couple minutes it isn't any of your concern
last shirt worn: band one from eigth grade
last time dancing: no se
first grade teacher's name: Mrs. Irwin..aww she was the teacher who let me sit next to Zach Pech..this kid who went to daycare with me..oh man was he cute....now he's all grown up, and sadly enough goes to TJ..sorry babe
last time you said 'I love you'. to my cousins last night
what's in your cd player: nada yo
what color socks are you wearing: none
what's under your bed: oh if you only knew
where do you want to go: the beach...i want to be tan so bad! no such luck there..oh well band camp is next week
what is your career going to be: Elementary Teacher
where are you going to live: back here
how many kids do you want: 2-3 of my own 1-2 adopted and i'm going to be a foster mom
what kind of car will you have:a blue avalanche
current taste: my popscicle silly
current hair: its up bc i didn't take down last night
current clothes: my jammies and a band tshirt
current smell: haha no se
current longing: to be with someone
current desktop picture: something
current worry: none of your business
current hate: i dunno i got mad at this lady i saw bc she hit her kid really hard...i hate people who hit kids, and i hate this war. i hate to see people hurt.
current favorite article of clothing: my capris and my new outfit
favorite physical feature of the opposite sex: eyes
last CD that you bought: no se

2003-07-21T12:19:00.000-07:00

[[ Eyecolor... W/ & W/O contacts ]] Brown
[[ Parents still together? ]] Yup
[[ Siblings? ]] 1 brother, which would be Nathan
[[ Nieces/Nephews? ]] nope
[[ Kids of your own? ]] well um...no jeez
[[ Grandkids? ]] oh yeah a couple
[[ Pets? ]] jus molly
[[ In school/graduated? ]] In High School
[[ Rent, lease, or own your home? ]] I live in the band room are you lost?
[[ What do you do for work? ]] I work at sears! mwhaha
[[ How much do you make? ]] 6.75
[[ Have any credit cards? ]] jus the bank one
[[ AmEx? ]] say that again??
[[ Can I use em for a few days? ]] .........sure?
[[ What do you drive? ]] a box..mutha fucka what kinda question is that? i drive a car weirdo

Preferences
[[ Black and White/Color ]] Color
[[ Black/White ]] Both
[[ Red/Blue ]] Blue
[[ Dogs/Cats ]] Cats
[[ Roses/Daisies ]] daisies
[[ Beer/Liquor ]] hm...if you care you know otherwise too bad
[[ Boxers/Briefs *wink* ]] hm...boxers would be nice..hahaha but we're good with nothing
[[ Hair: Short/Long ]] eh no se.
[[ Boots/Shoes ]] neither
[[ Food: Mexican/Italian ]] Italian
[[ Dark/Light ]] Dark
[[ Day/Night ]] Night
[[ City/Country ]] City, oh yeah you know us city folk, in the big town of Council Bluffs
[[ Sheets: Solid/Animal Prints *rawr* ]] um..no

Favorites
[[ Color ]] pink and blue
[[ Animal ]] no se
[[Vehicle]] Trucks, i want a blue avalanche?
[[ Flower ]] no
[[ Beer ]] sure that would be nice
[[ Liquor ]] nhm...maybe later
[[ Soda ]] mr. pibb or dr. pepper
[[ Food ]] you know
[[ Book ]] no se
[[ Band ]] oh that band..sorry I was lost again
[[ CD ]] a lot
[[ Song ]] a lot
[[ Movie ]] a lot
[[ Country ]] Japan! haha take that
[[ State ]] no se
[[ City ]] who cares.
[[ School Subject ]] band lunch language
[[ Movie genre ]] huh? no
[[ Extracurricular Activity ]] dance..uh...theres more i'm sure you know.

Do you...
[[ Color your hair? ]] its glazed
[[ Have tattoos? ]] nope
[[ Piercings? ]] one in each ear
[[ Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both? ]] nope
[[ Floss daily? ]] sometimes
[[ Own a webcam? ]] Nope
[[ Ever get off the damn computer? ]] yeah ^^"
[[ Sprechen Sie Deutcsh? ]] ja...
[[ Hablar Espanol? ]] si mucho mucho
[[ Quack? Quack quack? ]] AFLUACK! lmao
[[ Gotten a speeding ticket? ]] nope
[[ How fast? ]] that would be a no
[[ DUI? ]] nope
[[ Been in a wreck? ]] no
[[ Been arrested? ]] No
[[ Stolen a car? ]] no
[[ Stolen anything? ]] Yes
[[ Smoke? ]] no
[[ Pot? ]] no
[[ Crack? ]] Oh hell no
[[ Drink? wouldn't you like to no?
[[ Been so drunk you couldn't remember your name? ]] no, well I didn't need to know my name thank you
[[ Been so drunk you didn't care that you couldn't remember your name? ]] amen..thats right
[[ Posed for nude pics? ]] no
[[ Considered a life of crime? ] no
[[ Considered being a hooker? ]] no
[[ Maybe a pimp? ]] No
[[ Been married? ]] No, wait yah a couple times
[[ Been divorced? ]] no

Are you psycho?
[[ Split personalities? ]] NO
[[ Schizophrenic? ]] no
[[ Obsessive? ]] sure am
[[ Compulsive? ]] yeah
[[ Obsessive Compulsive? ]] freak yeah
[[ Panic? ]] sometimes
[[ Anxiety? ]] dunno
[[ Depressed? ]] sometimes
[[ Suicidal? ]] no
[[ Homicidal? ]] no
[[ Genocidal? ]] say that again?>
[[ Pedophile? *sick fawkr* ]] no
[[ Obsessed with hate? ]] No
[[ Mutilate animals? ]] HELL NO!
[[ Idolize infamous criminals? ]] no
[[ Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore? ]] eeewww! no
[[ Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? ]] no
[[ Had sex outdoors? ]] oh yeah, everyday..no mutha fucka

Right now...
[[ What are you listening to? ]] no se
[[ What are you watching? ]] the computer dumb ass
[[ What time is it? ]] 2:09
[[ What are you wearing? ]] clothes
[[ Hey baby, nice shoes... ]] I'm not wearing any shoes
[[ What're you drinking? ]] nothing
[[ Eating? ]] no
[[ Got both hands on the keyboard? ]] yeah!
[[ You sure bout that? ]] yes......
[[ Who are you talkin to? ]] no one
[[ What other windows do you have open? ]] uh, my AIM, my away message for AIM, and the site for lj (I'm using my lj client right now)
[[ How bored are you? ]] BORED!
[[ Be anywhere, where would you be? ]] away from here
[[ Who would you be with? ]] my friends
[[ What would you be doin? ]] nothing you need to know

2003-07-21T12:07:00.000-07:00

ok, I'm back. Hi kids...jus been chillin round here. I was us till about 430 this morning..that was ever exciting..lol. Then went to bed around 6ish and slept till 9...oh such a good life. Lol...anyway just got back from talkin to bluford, jeez sometimes he really pisses me off. But what else is new. I want to go swimmin today but I have to run my brother around...aparently thats the way it works around here. Me and amanda and shauna hung out last night, that was exciting..amandas really cool! but you all knew that! so hm...I guess I have to go pick up my bro at the bowling alley, so I'm out. Luv ya

2003-07-19T23:25:00.000-07:00

well i am here...back again. i went to justins party tonight! and it was very awesome! good job! then hung out with some folk. I'm tired and crabby right now so oh well. I really don't like it when people talk shit about my friends when I'm right there bc they aren't friends with them. That bothers me beyond what I can take. THey are my friends, and they are like famliy to me and you don't talk shit about someone elses family. AND to all you who have talked to Kristin in the last couple weeks this one's for you....My life is MY business and what I do is my business. Not yours or hers. I don't care what she says, or thinks or does...and frankly she's a disquesting crybaby and I don't need crybabies running my life. What she says isn't true, and its not my fault she's jealous. Its not mine and its not his..don't ask us questions, its our business. We didn't do anything wrong...and I really don't appreciate it. I'm not trying to be mean, i'm just tired of this. I appreciate the concern, and people even caring...but really its nothing. THanks...luv ya<

2003-07-18T20:28:00.000-07:00

Me again. I talked to Becky last night and today..shell be home tomorrow. She told me to try and write 100 things about her. Hereee goeessss

1. Beckys favorite type of pizza is..w/o cheese. Weird, huh?
2. Her middle name is Lynn. Something she probably doesnt even know: Lynn= ruddy-complected?? or uh..lake/pool. ahaa
3. Like me, she loves the movie dirty dancing.
4. She also like dirty dancing at her dance studio in like..bellvue..er..yah
5. Becky doesnt exactly know where she was born?
6. Shes one of the youngest people in her class.
7. She has a hello kitty phone holder and seat cover ;x
8. Her brother is a little popular with the ladies. 12 year old playa. But what can you do.
9. Becky volunteers on Thursdays at Iowa Western's daycare.
10. She loveessss kids.
11. She doesnt like Dustin. When shes sober at least. Not that shes ever drunk. UHH
12. Beckys afraid to put gas in her car ;x
13. Shes basically a midget..like..5'3"
14. Shes a poet..but she knows it. Get it? ....
15. Beckys in love with this guy at work..but he has a gf. Sorry friend.
16. Me and Becky are shop a holics...in recovery though, because were both running out of money. *sigh*
17. Her Grandparents have a scary creepy weirdo dog named..Zack..although when she baby talks like a retard to her dog mollly (who looks like zach but liek 320 times smaller and girly..) she calls him zacky.
18. Shes obsessed with spaghettios. Someone take away the can opener.
19. Being the freak that she is, Becky watches saved by the bell every morning.
20. She is fluent in spanish. Donde esta el bano?
21.Like me as well, she doesnt like racism or stereotypes.
22. Becky has like 189 people on her buddy list.
23. She stuffs everything under her bed and calls it clean. I sure hope your parents are reading this..otherwise your ass is in for a lot of cleaning.
24. She hates running. AMEN BROTHA!
25. She plans to stay in this..wonderful..amazing..adventerous town in the future so she can work at L.C.
26. She doesnt sleep without her teddy bear that me and amanda got her for Christmas.
27. She was selected to be in swimba and went to Arizona last year. Got me a cactus sucker.
28. Beckys a sap for sad songs.
29. Shes afraid to turn the air in her car on.
30. Becky is an MCA at sears...one of those folk who answers the phone and asks what the hell you want...and helps people find stuff.
31. Would you like to apply for a Sears card?
32. Beckys going to get her hair permed. But she cant fully be like me bc she cant get hers highlighted and permed at the same time. MWAHAHA
33. The only thing she ever gets at the chinese place is chicken fried rice..and a medium dr. pepper. or mr. pibb..whichever.
34. Her favorite foods are mashed potatoes and spaghetti..im being serious.
35. Becky thinks that although shes trying to stop drinking pop its alright to drink sprite...because it has no caffeine.
36. She likes when my step dad sings to her. HEY BECKY! Idea. You can become like a singer manager and you and danny can go on the road. WOAH im a genius.
37. She wants to be a foster mom, as well as have her own 3 kids.
38. Becky wants a pink or yellow truck someday. *Sigh*
39. She doesnt watch very many movies.
40. She deathly afraid of being late to places.
41. The only song lyrics she basically knows: COME GIVE ME A HUUUUG
42. She gets incredibly lost in the music when chicago songs come on at work.
43. Her mom wouldnt let her use moose for the longest time.
44. She has a small collection of Finding Nemo toys
45. She usually gets a kids meal from burger king..chicken strip things..w/ honey.
46. We have a burger king..hes the manager. He tells constantly updates us on the time during our lunch breaks.
47. She listens to that 80's bs music. UCK
48. Her family has a membership at the pool..lol..uh
49.Before she supposedly stopped drinking pop..her favorite kind was coke..although her parents buy her pepsi.
50. Shes notorius at her house for leaving half drank cans everywhere. Same goes for he grandpa. lol
51. Her mom likes to have family time. Which is a brief day or two of not hanging out with me. lol
52. Her dads a big time computer guy. Hes a funny guy.53. She gets really good grades. Honor roll type of thing. Wait..how are we friends?
54. She went to prom with Ross Turner. Enough said. lol jk hes a good guy.
55. She likes to go to perkins and ask for one scoop of ice cream. *sigh*
56. Becky has a problem with answering her cell phone. Its barely ever on.
57. Basically the only thing she ever does at Sears is uh..fold towels. And her favorite person EVER is her manager. Right?
58. Shes never been to the drive in movie thing. er I dont think so at least..lol
59. She has an attitude problem. MHM
60. This can be number 60:
Shaunaaaaa [9:40 PM]: Tell me something about Becky
SmarterChild [9:40 PM]: Tell you what?
Shaunaaaaa [9:40 PM]: about becky..dancerz2004
SmarterChild [9:40 PM]: Sorry, I couldn't find any encyclopedia entries for "becky dancerz2004."
61. Beckys not in the encyclopedia yet.
62. She would probably die for marching band voluntarily. lol.
63. Becky and Josh R. dated for god knows how long.
64. She loves the carebears, like me :]
65. Shes afraid of thunderstorms ;x HAHA
66. The other day she asked me to get her a pair of socks out..and had to wear one of them inside out. what a FREAK
67. Becky practically lives in the bandroom..even during the summer.
68. Becky would do anything in the bandroom that she would do at home. ANYTHING. lmao
69. Practice room?
70. She takes band lessons from my aunt.
71. Me and Becky LOVE chicago..it comes out next month :] :] :]
72. Beckys mom has a twin sister.
73. Her little cousin can finally say her name.
74. The Jones family is her second family. Except in some aspects.
75. We both have a huge problem with people eating with their mouths open.
76. She got a c or d in geometry. GASP
77. She has vacationed in Florida, Arizona, Texas, and Missouri.
78. Obviously shes on vacation now.
79. She has her number for a calling card she bought in texas 2 years ago memorized. FREAK.
80. Becky has a charm bracelet with dancin stuff on it from her Grandparents.
81. Her and her little brother fight a lot. ahaha
82. She loves to sleep. WAY TO BE!
83. Becky likes the dirty dancing soundtrack. Yah!
84. Her car gets really messy like mine. :| its a creative type of thing basically..
85. Beckys never had her nails done.
86. Shes good at doing twisties and braiding hair.
87. She has little tolerance to smoke.
88. Becky has a carebear light thing in her room..got it for her for xmas. duh.
89. Her phone doesnt have call waiting.
90. Im her best friend. If you hadnt noticed. Vice Versa. Were cool.
91. When she writes sloppy and I write nice our writing is creepily the same.
92. She doesnt know yet but were doing a duet next yr for solo & ensemble.
93. We like to watch movies with Gibby and Mrs. K
94. She always buys starbursts and pretzels.
95. Beckys growing her bangs out
96. I think she gets excited when she gets to write checks out :X
97. We decided that if she was in my car and I got pulled over for some reason..wed be screwed if she didnt have her liscence bc the cop would think Im retarded and would be beckys fault. AHAH
98. Uh she has a huge basement..if thats what you want to call it.
99. Little kids call her Baaaacky Baaaaacky.
100. Becky has the coolest best friend in the world. *ahem* coughcough.

GOD that was amazing. only took like 45 mins too. BOO YAY

2003-07-15T23:33:00.000-07:00

welp..its shauna again. Sure hope becky doesnt mind that Im about to update her journal. AND IF SHE DOES ILL SLAP HER! dont you get that attitude with me :|
lol so um. yah, becky called me from california today. Turns out her parents were just kidding about the missiouri thing and theyre traveling from state to state.
lmfao just kidding. I havent heard a damn thing from her. But, she should be back dinner time Saturday! Which could very well mean breakfast lunch, or as we all would consider dinne.r.dinner..but beckys a bit confused when it comes down to meal times and names. lol
adios people.

2003-07-12T21:41:00.000-07:00

hey hey everyone!
this is shaunaaaa! beckys goin on vacation..off in missouri and she wont be back until friday. so until then keep your pants on. or something along those lines.
?
lol
bye suckas

2003-07-12T21:40:00.000-07:00

*You*

-Name: Becky Lynn Lou
-Nickname(s): Beeeeky beeeeky, Beccalynn, backy, sunshine
-Are you named after anyone?: nope
-Pets: molly mouse
-Birthday: september 6th
-Time of birth: I have no idea..like late at night though
-Zodiac sign: virgo
-Age: 16
-Height: 5'3"
-Eye color: brown
-Hair color: brownish
-Where were you born?: council bluffs..I think?
-Where did you grow up?: council bluffs
-Computer(s): one, and my brother has his own.
-School: LCHS
-Grade: gonna be a senior
-What kind of student were you?: the one the comes to school everyday because I cant miss band..or I dont function? I dont know
-What do you want to be?: elementary teahcer
-Fears: dying, being alone
-Medical issues: i have carpal tunnel...ocd :] ...and band geek, thats gotta count for somethin..we should take special mediaction for that
-Where do you work?: at sears with my sears family
-What do you want to be in the future?: teacher

*Opinions and Questions*

-Best movie of 2002: *laugh* I dont know (btw this is shauna filling this out for becky via telephone)
-Best new music artist of 2002: i dont know i dont really care
-Best songs of 2002: dont know
-Best kind of music: whatever I want to listen to
-Who do you have a crush on: oh god, do we need to even ask that question
-Do you like someone famous: definately not
-If yes who: --
-Who do you have for a best friend on opposite gender: Justin
-Do you like pickles?: yes
-What are you wearing?: my capri pants and a..band..shirt
-What time is it?: 11:07PM
-What is your idea of a perfect date?: walking along the beach when the sun is setting, sinec we have so many beaches around here.
-What is your idea of a perfect honeymoon?: I wanna go to Hawaii..or Jamaica..something like that
-What is your idea of a perfect wedding?: at a church with my friends and family
-What song reflects your life the most?: i dont know..you pick...probably some marching band music
-What hospital were you born in?: if I only knew I could tell you where I was really born
-How much did you weigh?: 6lbs 5oz
-what was your height?: i dono!?
-What do you wear to bed?: whatever I can find..or have on
-What kind of socks do you wear?: whatever I can find? or daddies for band and work
-What kind of toothpaste do you use?: its prescription stuff
-what kind of shampoo?: its uh i dono..its from trade secret
-What brand is your TV?: toshiba or something like that..i think?
-Have you ever done any extreme sports?:yah! Dancing, and marching band..thats as extreme as my life gets

*Favorites*

-Relative: my baby cousin..and my grandparents
-College: I dont have one since I definately dont go to college
-Stores: I dono..sears of course, its my third home
-Poems: i dont know..this definately isnt a poem..but this is my favorite quote"I wish I was still a kid becauses skinned knees are a lot easier to fix than broken hearts?
-Five girl names: emma, alisha, mkayla, alexis, breanna
-Five boy names: daniel, michael, joseph, isaah, and skylar
-Top 5 Actresses you like: oh god were not playing this game
-Top 5 actors you like:as above
-Bands: uh i dono
-Movies: dirty dancing, mulan, chicago (YAHHHHH!) drumline..and finding nemo..lilo and stitch
-Musical: sound of music
-Song : I dont know
-Vegetable: peas and carrots
-Meal: spaghetti or mashed potatoes
-Soda: mr. pibb and dr. pepper..depends on the day and what mood im in
-Fast Food Place: chinese and kfc
-What do you get there: at chinese...chicken fried rice and a medium drink
-Eat-in: dunkens or spaghetti works
Snack to munch on: candy or popscicles
-Kind of pizza: w/o cheese
-Ice cream: strawberry and chocolate..and neopalitan
-Cereal: lucky charms
-Meat: i hate meat
-Holiday: christmas
-Sport to play: marching band?
-Sport to watch: footbal
-Thing to do in winter: sleep
-Thing to do in summer: sleep
-Thing to do on weekends: sleep and hang out w/ my friends
-Vacation spot: i wanna go back to tx and florida..and arizona
-Dream vacation spot: um..i wanna go on a cruise w/ my grandma and grandpa to hawaii
-Place to shop: dont know
-Thing to do on a rainy day: sleep
-Thing to do on a sunny day: sleep
-Color: cerulean blue
-Gum: whatever I can find
-Outfit to wear: my capris and a shirt
-Pair of shoes: i dont know
-Kind of car: i want an avalance when i grow up]
-Stuffed Animal: the one shauna and amanda gave me for xmas
-Article of clothing: capris and my band shirt
-Piece of furniture in your room: my bed
-Place in your house: my room
-Place to be alone: my room
-Kind of house: my house
-Place to live: my house
-Place to work: sears!
-Family member: uh my cousin and my grandparents
-Memory from childhood: i dont know
-Memory with friends: florida
-Alcoholic beverage: wine coolers :]
-Kind of cigarettes: none
-Party you've ever been to: no se

*Personal*

-Have you ever done drugs?: no
-If so, what is your favorite?: none of the above
-Have you ever had sex?: no
-Are you straight, gay, or bi?: straight
-Have you ever passed out or thrown up from drinking too much?: lmfao uh how bout both three times
-Did you go to prom in high school?: i did last year and still have next yr
-What color are the socks you're wearing right now?: dont have any on
-Underwear?: white w/ flowers or somethin
-What was your last vacation?: when we went to arizona
-Do you have any future vacations coming up?: tomorrow!!!
-Do you have any tattoos?: no
-Do you have anything pierced besides your ears?: nope
-Do you own a car?: yes
-What is your dream car?: avalanche
Do you have long fingernails?: yes
-Do you paint them?:sometimes
-What about your toes?: sometimes
-Do you believe in God?: Yes
-What is your religious belief?: im lutheran
-What are some of your phobias?: i hate spiders
what is your major in college (if you're in college): not there
-Do you want children in the future?: yes 3 of my own and im going to be a foster mom
-Do you want to get married?: yes
-How many fillings/cavities do you have?: oh god i dont knwo

-Guys or girls?: guys
-Have you ever kissed anyone of the same sex?: no
-Did you like it?: UH
-Do you underwear and bras match?: oh god no if i had that kind of money id spend it on something more than two people are gonna see
-Do you carry a purse?: when i feel like it
-Are you right or left handed?: right
-What is under your bed?: junk
-What posters do you have on your walls?: none
-Have you ever been hospitalized?: yes
-Have you ever had surgery?: no
-Have you ever broken a bone?: yes
-Have you ever had stitches?: no

*This or That*

-Peanut butter or jelly: jelly
-Coke or Pepsi: coke
-Drive or walk: Drive
-Skydiving or bungee-jumping: neither
-Real World or Road Rules: Real World
-MTV or Comedy Central: MTV
-Ice or roller skating: ice
-Nike or Adidas: adidas
-Purse or wallet: both
-Dark hair or light: lwhatever
-Chocolate milk or regular milk: chocolate
-Tall or short: tall
-Tan or fair skinned: tan
-Blue eyes or brown eyes: Brown
-Ketchup or mustard: ketchup!...
-Books or movies: movies
-Comedy or horror: horror
-Bath or shower: bath
-Lights on or off during a movie: Off
-Theater or video: depends on who im w/
-Red or blue: blue
-Gold or silver: silver
-Morning or night: night
-Black or white: white
-Glass half full or half empty: half full
-Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate

2003-07-11T13:07:00.000-07:00

=The last time=

Last book you read: The Lost Boy
Last movie you saw: Ya Ya Sisterhood
Last thing you had to drink: pop..though I'm giving it up for band...sad I know
Last time you showered: this morning
Last thing you ate: ramon noodles
Last person you talked to on the phone: my grandma

=Do I=

Do drugs?: no
Have sex?: no
Give oral sex?: no
Receive oral sex?: no
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: yes
Remember your first love?: yeah
Still love him/her?: no
Read the newspaper?: occasionally
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: not any that i recall
Believe in miracles?: yes
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: faithful to someone else? or to God? bc I believe you can be faithful to other people forever...but never thought about the God thing.
Consider love a mistake?: absolutely not
Have a favorite candy?:not really
Believe in astrology?: yes
Believe in magic?:yes
Believe in god?: yes I do
Have any pets: one dog
Do well in school?: yeah
Go to or plan to go to college: sure do! and I'm looking forward to it
Wear hats?: no well maybe to band camp..;]
Have any piercings?: yeah
Have any tattoos?: no
Hate yourself?: sometimes
Have an obsession?: no
Have a secret crush?: no, obviously it isn't secret
Do they know yet?: .....jeez if I could answer that question, i'd be a lot happier
Collect anything?: not really
Have a best friend?: yes I do, Shauna...and Justin..and well theres more
Close friends?: oh jeez, I don't wanna name everyone, most of my friends are close
Wish on stars?: yeah
Like your handwriting?: yeah
Care about looks?: not unless I'm going somewhere I might see someone I k now, well really I have to be in the mood though

=Love life=

First crush: Jeez...Todd..though everyone and their mom knows that
Single or attached?: single
Ever been in love?: yes
Do you believe in love at first sight?: yes
Do you believe in "the one?": yes

=Juicy stuff=

Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing?: yes
Have you ever been intoxicated?: no
Favorite place to be kissed?: lips??
Shy to make the first move?: depends on who the other person is

=Are you a=

Wuss: depends
Druggy: no
Daydreamer: yes
Freak: yeah
Dork: yes
Bitch/Asshole: can be
Brat: lol..oh yeah
Sarcastic: sometimes
Angel: ...
Devil:....
Shy: yes
Talkative: depend on who im talking ot
Adventurous: depends on who I am with, when Im with my friends we tend to play it safe..though when you get me with the right people I can be crazy....though Shauna and I are pretty crazy..lol
Joker: ? sometimes??
Flirty: maybe

=Word association=

Rock: stone
Green: julie
Wet: rain
Cry:tears
Peanut: butter
Hay: cows
Cold: hot
Steamy: hot
Fast: furious
Freaky: sc
Rain: umberlla
Bite:reality
Suck: straw
Blow: dry
Hard: soft

last car ride: like 5 minutes ago went to the grocery store to cash in cans i got 4.75
last good cry: hm..actually a couple of nights ago
last library book check out: no se
last cuss word uttered: no se
last tv show watched: the adoption series on the health channel
last time showered: this morning
last shoes worn: tennies
last cd played: cant remember
last item bought: hm...my new outfit from deb
last downloaded: no se
last disappointment: no..we're leaving sunday instead of monday ;[
last key used: [
last word spoken: let me get on, to my brother who thinks he always needs to be on the computer
last sleep: last night
last IM: SoccerB7
last sexual fantasy: huh...no
last weird encounter: no se
last ice cream eaten: oh its been awhile
last time amused: no se
last time wanting to die: ?
last time in love: no se
last time hugged: no se
last time scolded: last night
last chair sat in: this one
last lipstick used: my new one
last underwear worn: pretty pink with a bow!
last bra worn:my sports bra that i have on now that is pink and white and blue and orange
last shirt worn: dance one
last time dancing: eh..no
last poster looked at: no
last show attended: once again no
last webpage visited:here

2003-07-09T22:24:00.000-07:00

this reminds me of the section leader thing we went to in the forest...couple years back.

LAYER TWO
-- Your heritage: German America
-- The shoes you wore today: Sandles
-- Your weakness: makin friends
-- Your fears: being alone, dying
-- Your perfect pizza: without cheese please
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: fill all my dreams before i die

LAYER THREE
-- Your most overused phrase on AIM: no se
-- Your thoughts first waking up: another day, damn
-- Your best physical feature: oh jeez, none
-- Your bedtime: when i'm sleepy
-- Your most missed memory: Florida and AZ

LAYER FOUR
-- Pepsi or Coke:Coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King: Buger Kind
-- Single or group dates: group
-- Adidas or Nike: Adidas
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: hm..no
-- Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate
-- Cappuccino or coffee: um..no

LAYER FIVE
-- smoke: No
-- Cuss: Yes
-- Sing: Only when I'm sure I'm alone, I would shatter eardrums with my horrific singing, trust me.
-- Take a shower everyday: Of course, well most days
-- Have a crush(es): Yes
-- Do you think you've been in love: yes
-- Want to go to college: yes and will
-- Like high school: depends on the day
-- Want to get married: Someday eventually
-- Believe in yourself: Depends
-- Get motion sickness: No
-- Think you're attractive: No
-- Think you're a health freak: no!
-- Get along with your parents: Yes-- Like thunderstorms: They're cool!
-- Play an instrument: I believe I do! my freakin clarinet which can't seem to leave my side

LAYER SIX: In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: No
-- Smoked: No
-- Done a drug: No
-- Had Sex: No
-- Made Out: In the past month no, past two months yeah
-- Gone on a date: No (God, I'm boring! Lol!)
-- Gone to the mall?: Yup!
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no they come in packages not boxes..are you confused??
-- Eaten sushi: No
-- Been on stage: No
-- Been dumped: No
-- Gone skating: No
-- Made homemade cookies: No
-- Gone skinny dipping: No
-- Dyed your hair: No
-- Stolen anything: No

LAYER SEVEN: Ever..
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: Yes
-- If so, was it mixed company: huh, come again...oh i understand..yes ma'm
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Nah.
-- Been caught "doing something": not caught
-- Been called a tease: no bitch but not a tease
-- Gotten beaten up: No
-- Shoplifted: No
-- Changed who you were to fit in: No

LAYER EIGHT
-- Age you hope to be married: when i find him
-- Numbers and Names of Children:Daniel Joseph, Emma Mae, Alisha Jo, Michael Joseph, MiKayla Rae
-- Describe your dream wedding: at a church with friends and family
-- How do you want to die: Painlessly, like in my sleep or something.
-- Where you want to go to college: Wartburg, or somewhere close and small
-- What do you want to be when you grow up:an elementary teacher
-- What country would you most like to visit: Germany or Europe or something like Japan or China always wanted to go, or Mexico..oh that would be neat....Donde estas? En Iowa..Iowa donde esta? en Texas?? Lmao bringing back some Florida memories

LAYER NINE: In a guy/girl..
-- Best eye color? big and blue
-- Best hair color? Doesn't matter
-- Short or long hair: i love long curly hair, but its ok without
-- Height: Taller than me.
-- Best weight: Haven't really thought about it.
-- Best articles of clothing: Whatever.
-- Best first date location: beach..;]
-- Best first kiss location:doesn't really matter...though in bed is nice!!
LAYER TEN
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: None
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: 3
-- Number of CDs that I own: no se
-- Number of piercings:uno
-- Number of tattoos:none
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: none
-- Number of scars on my body: no se
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: dont regret things

2003-07-09T20:00:00.000-07:00

DO...
You have a bf or gf = No
You have a crush on someone = yeah
You wish you could live somewhere else = no
You think about suicide =no
Others find you attractive = judging from what kristin said pry not
You want more piercings = Yes
You drink = eh no comment
You do drugs = absolutely not
You smoke = absolutely not
You like cleaning =sometimes
You like roller coasters = Yes
You write in cursive or print = somedays print, somedays cursive
You carry a donor card = it says it on my liscense, and yes i am

FOR OR AGAINST..
Long distance relationships = depends how serious
Using someone = jeez, well you all know that i'm good in those situations...I don't mean to hurt people..and I don't think its right unless the circumstances are like mine or infavor of something like that
Killing people = no absolutely not
Teenage smoking = That's a no-no
Premarital sex = depends, if you're in love then the more power to you
Driving drunk = no that is definately not cool
Gay/lesbian relationship = eh, whateva floats they're boat
Soap operas = no

FAVOURITE...
Food = Chinese, spaghetti
Song = no se
Thing to talk about = memories from band of course
Sports = dance and football
Drinks = pop
Clothes = preferbly on, well offs good to ;]
Movies = oh you all know
Band/singer =no se
New nerdy saying = donde estas?? tu pantalones

HAVE YOU...
Ever cried over a guy/girl = oh jeez, when today, oh yah actually
Ever lied to someone = Yes
Ever been in a fist fight = no
Ever been arrested = No

NUMBER...
Of times I have been in love? 2
Of times I have had my heart broken? 2
Of hearts I have broken? = 1
Of girls I have kissed? = no
Of boys I have kissed? = 3 or 4 ish
Of girls I've slept with? = um once again no
Of boys I've slept with? = no NO DAMNIT KRISTIN!
Of drugs taken illegally? = absoultey none
Of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? most
Of people I consider my enemies? = 0
Of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = no se
Of scars on my body? = Lots
Of things in my past that I regret? = NONE ABSOLUTELY NONE

FAVORITE...
Disney movie = Mulan
Scent = no se
Word = no se
Nickname = Becca, Backy, lol..BEEKY, Becky Jo
Guy name = Daniel Joseph
Girl name = Emma Jo
Eye color = Brown
Color = pink and that blue you all know

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
BASICS
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
(12) Your gender: Female
(13) Straight/gay/bisexual? Straight
(14) Single? Yes
(15) Want to be? eh
(16) Your birthdate: Sept 6
(17) Your age: 16, lol...though i'm only 7 at sears
(18) Age you act: mom says i act like i'm 12
(19) Age you wish you were: 18
(20) Your height: 5'3
(21) The color of your eyes: Brown
(22) Happy with it? Sure
(23) The color of your hair: Brown with natural gold highlights
(24) Happy with it?sure
(25) Left/right/ambidextrous? Right
(26) Your living arrangement? parents and hermano
(27) Your family: mom dad and hermano
(28) Have any pets? Molly, fish died ;[
(29) What's your job: Sears
(30) Piercings? no
(32) Obsessions? clothes, making sure nothing starts on fire, doors are locked, list goes on and on
(33) Addictions? none
(34) Do you collect anything? no
(35) Do you speak another language? espanol
(36) Have a favorite quote? no
(37) Do you have a webpage? www.beccalynn.blogspot.com, which you know if you're here
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DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
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(38) Do you live in the moment? I guess
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? yeah
(40) Do you have any secrets? Yes
(41) Do you hate yourself? No
(42) Do you like your handwriting? Couldn't care either way
(43) Do you have any bad habits? Lots
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people? none
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? no se
(46) What's your biggest fear? being alone, dying
(47) Can you sing? no
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? HELL NO
(49) Are you a loner? Sometimes
(50) What is your number one priority in life? no se
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you? no
(52) Are you a daredevil? I can be, not really though
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? Yes
(54) Are you passive or aggressive? More passive, methinks
(55) Have you got a journal? This one
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness?no
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? My body
(58) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity: Love
(59) How do you vent? Cry, drink, cry
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong? I don't know
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life? NO
(62) Do you think life has been good so far? Yes
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learnt from life? no se
(64) What do you like the most about your body? none
(65) And least? Everything else haha
(66) Do you think you are good looking? no
(67) Are you confident? Sometimes
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like? ?
(69) Do people know how you feel? I don't think so
(70) Are you perceived wrongly? Probably
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DO YOU?
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(73) Read the newspaper? Yes
(74) Pray? yeah
(75) Go to church? No
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you? no one randomly IMs me (me either)
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals? yeah
(78) Take walks in the rain? I love the rain
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them? sometimes
(80) Drive? Yes
(81) Like to drive fast? Yes
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WOULD OR HAVE YOU EVER?
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(82) Liked your voice?no
(83) Hurt yourself? Yes
(84) Been out of the country? no
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick? Yes
(86) Had sex? NO mutha fucka
(87) Been unfaithful?no
(88) Been in love? yes
(89) Done drugs? no
(90) Gone skinny dipping? No
(91) Had a medical emergency? Yes
(92) Had a surgery? No
(93) Ran away from home? When I was young
(94) Played strip poker?oh yah..lmao
(95) Gotten beaten up? No
(96) Beaten someone up? No
(97) Been picked on? Yes
(98) Been on stage? Yes
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath? no, close but not quite
(100) Slept outdoors? Yes
(101) Thought about suicide? no
(102) Pulled an all-nighter? Yes
(103) If yes, what is your record? two days
(104) Gone one day without food? Yes
(105) Talked on the phone all night? Yes
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex? Yes
(107) Slept all day? Yes
(108) Killed someone? Haha no
(109) Made out with a stranger? Yes
(110) Had sex with a stranger? no
(111) Thought you're going crazy? Yes
(112) Kissed the same sex? no
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex? No
(114) Been betrayed? Yes
(115) Had a dream that came true? just did ;]
(116) Broken the law? Yes
(117) Met a famous person? in AZ yeah
(118) Masturbated? good question? mwhaha..lol..nah sure haven't

2003-07-09T19:25:00.000-07:00

Ok. Kristin I hope to God you are reading this. None of my life is any of your business and it never will be. What he does is none of your business either. Get over him, he doesn't like you. I dont' care what fucken mistakes you've made in the past nor do I care, but it has absolutely nothing to do with me. I don't bother you and your boyfriends, so leave me alone. What we decide to do, or have done, is between the two of us...no one else. And NO ONE believes you, you can tell the world, and no one will hear ya. So you're wasting your time. I am not a bitch, and you have no right to call me that, when you don't know me or anything about me. I don't go critisizing you for why you like every guy on this earth, or why you cry when someone looks at you. So don't critisize me. My life, my problem. If I want to be with someone its my business. So Grow the hell up and move on with you're life and quit being jealous bc you don't have him anymore. He's old enough to make desicions on his own he doesn't need you tying him down. Oh and by the way the people who told you are lying. I never told any one of them that we did anything that extreme, so frankly either you need to find some new friends or quit making shit up.

2003-07-09T08:36:00.000-07:00

wow that was crazyness. Um...its Wednesday, I have a lesson with Ms. Ryan here pretty soon and an eye appt. at 4. So it will be a calm day unless they call me into work. EH, hope not. Diana and I had a horrible time starting to put the kids stuff away from the truck we got in Monday. Theres absolutely no where to put anything. I was only scheduled until 8 but I worked till 9. Now I work 23.5 hours this week ;]. Well yah thats my exciting life for ya.....TOmorrow I have to go to IWCC to see my babies and We have thursday rehersal from 6-9 and I work 11-3. Long day...lol...well I must go, adios. Luv ya

2003-07-09T08:31:00.000-07:00

First bike: It was pink! I forget what it looks like though
First best friend(s): Tricia Myre we were best friends from kindergarden till 3rd grade
First real memory of something: no se
First car: my blue grand am
First date: Josh
First kiss: hm...I wonder
First break-up: Josh
First job: Sears!
First screen name: dancerz2004
First self purchased album: oh jeez I think it was Hanson ;[
First funeral: don't remember
First pet: Chrissy
First piercing/tattoo:my ears in like 5th grade
First independent home: I live at home?
First house/flat/apartment: huh its the parents
First credit card:i have a debt card, though its not activated
First love:no comment
First enemy: no se
First big trip: we went to tx every year for like 9 years..nothing ever big
First play/musical/performance: we had a play in 3rd grade
First musician you remember hearing in your house: no se
last good cry: uh...last night
last library book checked out: at the stupid school!
last movie seen: Charlies Angels
last book read:The lost boy
last cuss word uttered: no se
last beverage drank: water. my mr. pibb last night at work
food consumed: jello
last crush: I'm sure everyone and their mom knows so whateva
last kiss: um..no comment
last phone call: the dentist just called...lmao, but yah no se, I was waiting up till 12:30 for someone to call, but that obviously didn't happen
last tv show watched: Saved by the bell and dawsons creek yesteday
last time showered: this morning
last shoes worn: my sandals
last cd played: hm..no se
last item bought: lunch at chinese
last downloaded: no se
last annoyance: work ;[
last disappointment:no se
last soda drank:mr. pibb
last word written: mr. pibb
last key used: b
last word spoken: ok I'll tell him...do the dentist, she told me to tell dad I need a checkup...haha
last sleep: last night
last im:gennakate11
last weird encounter: last night
last ice cream eaten: fourth of july
last time amused: last night
last time wanting to die:no comment ;[
last time in love: no comment
last time hugged: fourth of july
last chair sat in: computer
last lipstick used: sparkly lip gloss stuff at work
last shirt worn: my band one from 8th grade
last time dancing: havne't went dancing yet, were working on that
last webpage visited: here

YOUR DREAM GUY_*

*Tall, Average, Short: Taller than me...
*Dark, Just tan, or White: Tan
*Muscular, Average, or Puny: Average...
*Athletic, Smart or both: doens't matter
*Shy, Talkative, or A Little Bit of both: lttle bit of both
*Sweet or Sensitive: Sweet!
*Cowboy or City Slicker: Cowboy, lmao, Stacey we'll find your cowboy!
*Wealthy, Average, Poor: average
*Age you prefer: a little bit older then me
*Animal lover or hater: lover!
*Pimp or Faithful: lol faithful?
*Color hair: any
*Sense of Humor: YESSSSS!!!
*Nice: YEAH!
*Hot: thatd be nice but not neccessary
*Nice clean teeth: Obviously
*Want him to tell you when something is wrong: Yes of course...yah for once a guy that would say when somethings up
*Does it matter if your parents like him: No it doesn't, but it would be nice
*Do you want him to take you on dates: Yes..duh.. lol
*Would you expect him to pay for your meals and dates: sometimes yes and sometimes no
*Do you want your friends to like him, but not steal him from you: thats just common sense?
*Do you get jealous easily: sometimes
*Do you want to be able to trust him: ya of course.. these are such dumb ?'s
*Would you want him to buy you presents for no occasion: it'd be sweet but definitly not needed
*Would you expect him to stick up for you: If he really liked me he would...
*Would you say you were picky after takin this: Not really.

*Knows you best? Shauna, and pry Justin
*Do you have the most childhood memories with? my family, cousins, and my friends from Walnut Grove
*Have you known longest? Mandie
*Have you known the shortest? Shauna ;[f
*Do you hang out with most? Shauna and Justin
*Do you wish you knew better? Ally
*Is the funniest? Shauna and well Nick from work, he's hilarous, and Ashley Evans
*Is the quietest? pry me
*Is the cutest? um..no us band kids aren't cute
*Is the prettiest? um..no
*Is the most creative? oh jeez, no se
*Is the biggest flirt? Justin
*Understands you? Shauna
*Has the most jokes? no se...lmao, Danny
*Is best dressed? my friends are crazy dressers..lol nah they're all pretty good
*Is craziest? Jeffrey
*Is the most disgusting? Jeffrey
*Has the prettiest hair? Shauna
*Has the prettiest eyes? Justin
*Has the biggest boobies? lmao, bc friends talk about this and all...um..no
*Looks like a cheerleader? Ellen ;]
*Looks like a super model? No se
*Is the nicest? youre all nice
*Is the tallest? Ally
*Is the shortest? Mandie
*Has had the most b/f's? Mandie
*Is pretty much in a serious relationship? Mandie, i'm assuming anyway....not that mine isn't but yah know
*Whines the most? no se
*Will be your maid of honor? does it look like I'm engaged? yah right...lmao, no pry Shauna

2003-07-08T12:48:00.000-07:00

Hi! well um..i know its been awhile, I've been crazy busy. Nothing new is going on, well nothing you need to know about. Shauna, Justin and I went to chinese today for lunch and then to the mall for awhile. We say Mr. Basch and Ms. Kilibarta there, she's so awesome! and then we shopped. Right now I'm getting ready for work, which I've done crazy this week. I get 22.5 hours, this week..which is the most i've ever gotten! Thank the lord Dawn isn't here. And well its been fun, but gotta go, adios. Luv ya

2003-07-04T16:55:00.000-07:00

This or that...

Nice smiles or nice eyes?: Eyes
Jeans or skirts?: Skirts are easier to get off..lol but I like jeans better
Boots or sneakers?: huh? how bout neither
Natural or make-up?: make up
Restaurants or fast food?: home...spaghettios
Italian food or Asian food?: Italian
Dark or light eyes?: light and big
Streaked or dyed hair?: streaked
Vampires or Gods?: one God...not plural
Shakespeare or Greek mythology?:Shakespere
Milk shakes or floats?:shakes
Drugs or cigarettes?: neither
Football or cheerleading?: Football...football means band..which means we have to march...football guys are hot!
Cake or pie?: ice cream

How...

Do you want to die?: fast and painless without people that love me around
Do you brush your teeth?: well ok, no i'm sorry i don't..duh! jeez
Much time do you take to dress up?: 20-30 minutes
Do you like your life?: somedays
Well do most people know you?: oh jeez no
Common or original is this survey?: huh?
Often do you smile?: lots!
Many times a week do you eat junk food?: oh jeez i'd rather not say

Do you..

Sing?: sure do
Dance?: sure do, all kinds all the time.
Laugh a lot?: sure do
Like spicy food?: yah
Prefer bagels over yogurt?:bagels!
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: um...;[ not at the current moment
Want one?: sure do
Have sex?: no
Think babies are cute?: i love babies.
Children in general?: i love children
Have children?: not any that i know of
Believe in fortune cookies?:sure do.
Believe in life after death?: I believe you go to heaven or hell...we aren't coming back as cows or ants sorry guys
Believe in life after love?: slowly but yes I do
Believe that anything is possible?: yes I think so
Believe that everyone has a purpose in life?: yah, though not everyone realizes that
Know what yours is?: yeap, I am going to make a lot of children happier, provide them with a good education and loving enviroment. Teach them things that will always be with them and hopefully change their lives. I will make their generation not have to witness the cruelty and poverty in the world that we see now. I will try to love everyone, and be as peaceful as possible. And make a difference...thats one thing that I will not leave this world until I do...

Are...

You a girl?: Yes.
You a comedian?: do I look like a comedian
Your friends true friends in your opinion?: i suppose so
You bored?: yes.

Describe...

Your heritage:german
Your usual outfit: clothes
Your hair: up
Your eyes: brown
What you'd like to change about yourself: no se
Your perfect mate (physical features): ;[

What...

Are your weaknesses?: no se, people intimidate me easily, um I have problems making friends bc I'm shy.
Are your fears?: death, that i'll always be alone
Does your perfect pizza consist of?: no cheese please!
Is the difference between fate and destiny?: huh? I believe in fate.
Is one thing you would like to achieve?: no se

Who...

Do you love the most?: my friends and family...those people who know that I just don't have to say. when you look in their eyes you just can tell
Would you like to meet that you know online?: no se
Is the one person who makes you laugh the most?: i dunno
Really annoys you?: ??
Could you not live without?: my friends and family
Doesn't like you though you like him/her?: oh jeez the list goes on and on
Likes you though you hate him/her?: don't hate people

Is...

Hate too strong of a word?: yes
Food from other cultures good?: uh, some of them.
Your mood calm at the moment?: yes, i'm unusually happy

2003-07-04T16:43:00.000-07:00

01. kissed your cousin:um no..well my baby cousin I kissed her the other night...ecky kisses (she's 2) and my cousin courtney before I left the game the other night...luv ya corky!
02. ran away: no success
03. pictured your crush naked: no comment
04. actually seen your crush naked: um...no comment
05. broken someone's heart: not intentionally
06. been in love: yes.
07. cried when someone died: yes.
08. wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: yes
09. broken a bone:yah my wrist twice
10. drank alcohol: duh
11. lied: yes
12. cried in school: yes

which is better _
13. coke or pepsi: coke
14. sprite or 7up: sprite
15. girls or guys: guys
16. flowers or candy: flowers
17. scruff or clean-shaven: clean shaven
18. quiet or loud: quitely loud
19. blondes or brunettes: no se
20. bitchy or slutty: how bout no
21. tall or short: medium
22. pants or shorts: none...donde estas tu pantalones??
with the opposite sex _
23. what do you notice first: eyes, smile
24. last person you slow danced with: oh jeez, um..ross...I know, its bad
25. worst thing they could do: hurt me

the last time you _
26. showered: this morning
27. had sex: uh no se
28. had a great time with the opposite sex: today at work! lol, wait a minute, thats not dirty..we talk at work, talk thats all we do!

what is _
29. your good luck charm: teddy bear and blanket
30. person you hate the most: don't hate people
31. the best thing that has happened to you today: got to chill with amy and danielle at work..they're awesome! and shauna rolled on over...!

favorites _
32. color: pink and ceraeloun blue
33. movie: I'm sure you all know
34. book: impossible to pick just one
35. subject in school: um..band lunch language
36. juice: apple..lmao, member that mandie! apple juice makes me horny ...lol the good old days of band camp!
37. cars: I want a yellow or white avalange!
38. ice cream: I love neopolitan??
39. holiday:Christma
40. season: Spring or fall
41. breakfast food: don't usually eat breakfast
42. place to go with your honey: bed...;]

what/who _
43. makes you laugh the most: my friends
44. makes you smile: my friends and the awesome people at work!
45. gives you a funny feeling when you see them: oh no! lol
46. has a crush on you: yah right! try again!
47. do you have a crush on:no se..lmao
48. can make you feel better no matter what: my friends
49.has it easier, guys or girls: we both have it bad, we both have it good..lol

do you ever _
50. sit by the phone waiting for a call all night: almost every night
51. save aol conversations: no
52. save e-mails: yes, proof!
53. wish you were someone else: somedays
54. wish you were a member of the opposite sex: um..no
55. cry because of someone's mean words: yes who doesn't??

best _
56. cologne: no se
57. perfume: no se
58. kiss: lots of them! long, mwhaha...as their tongue is jammed down your throat! I love that! lol
59. romantic memory: not saying
60. most recent advice given to you: don't be afraid of what you feel

have you _
61. fallen for your best friend: oh jeez yah, many a times
62. made out with just a friend: yes, hello do I know you...lol...us band kids are like that and all
63. been rejected: of course
64. been in love: yes.
65. been in lust: constantly
66. used someone: not really well not directly
67. been used: yes, pry right now
69. been cheated on: no..can't say that I have
70. been kissed: oh yah
71. done something you regret: no

who was the last person _
72. you touched: no se..lmao danielle threw the horses butt towel to me..lol
73: you talked to: Shauna
74. you hugged: my grandma and papel
75. you instant messaged: aaron
76. you kissed: no se
77. you had sex with: no se, lol..no one
78. you yelled at: actually I haven't yelled at anyone lately! weird isn't it!
79. you laughed with: danielle and amy
80. who broke your heart: its been awhile
81. who told you they loved you: grandma and papel

do you _
82. color your hair: its glazed
83. have tattoos: no.
84. have piercings: ears
85. have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both: not at the current moment

2003-07-04T10:35:00.000-07:00

You don't know me, you don't understand me, so frankly I don't know why you're still here.
You're wasting your time and breaking my heart, over something that could be so real.
I'm sick of waiting, and wasting life...and all thats mine.
So step aside and take control or leave it all behind.

2003-07-03T21:03:00.000-07:00

Have you ever..
x fallen for your best friend?: yah
x. made out with JUST a friend?: jeez, I think we all know the answer to that question
x. been rejected?: yes
x. been in love?: yes
x. been in lust?: yes
x. used someone?: eh, well not really...not in a bad way
x. been used?: oh jeez pry, pry right now actually
x. been kissed?: yes
x. done something you regret? no

Who was the last person..
x. you touched?: lol, no se...my grandpa gave me a hug!
x. you talked to?: Shauna, and my parents
x. you hugged?: grandma and grandpa
x. you instant messaged?: Shauna
x. you yelled at?: mi hermano
x. you laughed with?: my family! that includes shauna..lmao
x. you had a crush on?: oh jeez, no se
x. who broke your heart?: oh goodness, well i could start with that, thought it might never end

Do you..
x. color your hair?: no, well its glazed, but nothing big
x. have tattoos?:no
x. piercings?: just ears
x. have a girlfriend/boyfriend?: not at the current moment
x. own a webcam?: nope
x. ever get off the damn computer?: no.
x. sprechen sie deutsche?: ja
x. habla espanol?: si muchos

what are...
x. you wearing: my new outfit, a green shirt and my capris
x. current mood: need beer! lol..jk...um i'm upset bc the fireworks were lame this year
x. current music: 3 doord down, when I'm gone
x. current taste: chex mix
x. current hair: brown with lots of blonde
x. current annoyance: boys
x. current smell: love spell stuff
x. current thing I ought to be doing: sleeping? getting drunk...lmao, jk
x. current desktop picture: its uh...no se...water and island shit
x. favorite band/group: no se
x. current book: um most definatley not
x. current dvd in player: drumline
x. current worry: boys
x. current crush: no se
x. current favorite celebrity: oh jeez, no se

Favorite..
x. food: spahgetti and mashed potatoes
x. drink: pepsi
x. color: pink and cerelaun blue
x. shoes: whatever I see first
x. candy: hm...just bout nething
x. animal:no se
x. tv show: saved by the bell
x. movie: dirty dancing, drumline, chicago
x. dance: ALL DANCING IS FABULOUS
x. vegetable:peas, carrots all that good stuff
x. fruit: apples, bananas, oranges, just bout nething

Are you...
x. understanding: try to be
x. open-minded: oh yah
x. insecure: somedays
x. interesting: yah
x. hungry:no not usually
x. friendly: yes
x. smart: i think so
x. moody: most days
x. childish: at times
x. independent: yah
x. hard working: yes..
x. organized: yes
x. healthy: yes.
x. emotionally stable: usually
x. shy: oh yah
x. difficult: yes, well i can be
x. attractive: ehh
x. bored easily: yea
x. thirsty: yes
x. responsible: yes
x. sad: some days
x. happy: somedays
x. trusting: yes, though the occasional slip..sorry beth ;[
x. talkative: depends on to whom
x. original: oh yeah
x. different: yes
x. unique: yes
x. lonely: most days

2003-07-03T11:31:00.000-07:00

1) My goal in life is: be something great and have people really love me
2) The thing that gives me the most satisfaction is: being with people
3) My childhood was: normal
4) I think sex is: something you should only do with someone you really love
5) When I make love, I prefer: what??? no se...haha.
6) My deepest fear is: Dying, actually.
7) My deepest need is: someone always here
8) My most frequent feeling is: depression
9) The thing I hate most is: Hypocrites.
10) I worry most about: everything
11) My goals for a primary relationship are: to do drugs///lol those are shauna's words. Um..nah I think to always understand and love that person no matter what happens.
12) My reasons for wanting a primary relationship are: no se...just want to be loved and cared about ;[
13) I think my relationships have been: short, nothing compared to what I really want
14) Something I want to change about myself: stop worrying about everything, especially about what other people think
15) I fantasize about: lol, no se
16) I feel anger when: no se...when people are hyprocrites
17) I think I am: asdlkj;alkdjfldkjl ldsa;kjfaldkj
18) My highest value is: that I care about everyone
19) I think spending money on: say what?
20) A nude body is: haha, lol...no se
21) My most frequent pleasure is: lol that sounds dirty
22) I am happiest when: people are around me
23) When a man makes love, he should: say what? we don't talk about this stuff!
24) Your body should be: no se...clothed??
25) To me, work is: wonderful...especially at Sears
26) In general, I view life as: adskj;lkjdasf;ajkl;, no se
27) When I go to a party, I: oh..no se...get drunk?? nah haven't been to a party in awhile
28) Women's bodies are: lol, i dunno you're crazay
29) My idea of a dream career is: a teacher..who really does make a difference
30) The person I admire most is: my friends, family just about everyone
31) To me, death is: Pretty scary.
32) I think war is: scary, my grandpa was in the war...he's very brave! he was stationed at Pearl Harbor
33) I have no use for people who are: haha, dumb!
34) I am afraid of: death
35) When someone is rude to me, I: no se
36) I can't understand people who believe: Jehova's Witnesses...i really really dislike them!
37) Men's bodies are: a;ldskjf;lkj, no se
38) In general I think my strengths are: no
39) After making love, a man: we are not talking about this? lol
40) My weaknesses are: just ask anyone
41) My view of money is: wish I had some
42) To me, children are: everything
43) Parents are: eh, no se
44) Married life is: heres some advice, ask someone's who's married.dumbass.
45) I am envious of: no se
46) I wish: a lot of things, that people would give me a chance....and stop thinking they know me
47) My dream vacation is: Hawaii
48) I have the most fun: With my friends.
49) I take great pleasure in:oh goodness, this sounds akey
50) My favorite sport is: dance, football
51) What disgusts me: Smokers.
52) I think retirement: its for grandma and papl
53) Many of my dreams are about: oh no..no...i don't remember. I had a dream about my mom finding a used codom in my room once..thank goodness that would never happen. lol...;]
54) When I am afraid, I: no se
55) When I see couples kissing in public, I: wanna grab they're freakin hair and slam them to the freakin ground
56) Regarding a man's orgasm, a woman: what? this keeps getting ackey and more ackey
57) When I fall in love, I: well i wouldn't know would I
58) When I have spare time, I like to: oh jeez here we go again
59) I can't stand it when a man: is a man!
60) I think touching: what/?? your'e sick
61) Religion for me: is important.
62) Child rearing, in my mind: What IS child rearing?
63) I think God: is great! I love jesus yes I do, cuz the bible told me so....sorry flashbacks from bible camp
64) What I want when I get sick is: what?? no se.
65) I can't stand it when a woman: i dunno huh?
66) Discipline: is definately needed
67) The thing that bothers me most about my body is: everything
68) When I die, I: want people to know that I love them, and all
69) What hurts me most: a lot
70) My parents: are wonderful
71) I've never told anyone that I like: drugs...lmao, nah just shauna..no se I really dont do that stuff
72) In a long marriage, sex: what? here we go again
73) I like sex when: i think you're mistaken..i don't think you know who you're talking to
74) Politics are:dumbasses
75) Orgasms are: how do we go from politics to orgasms?? no se
76) The worst thing in life is: hate
77) The best thing in life is: Love.
78) The way I feel about separate vacations is: say that again?
79) The first thing I notice about someone is: they're smile
80) I think marriage is: something special, that should never be broken!
81) My most shameful secret is: ask me and i'll tell ya
82) In an argument, I: kick the other persons ass..lol
83) To me intimacy means: why are we talking about this
84) Divorce is: something I can't deal with, if you marry someone you should always be with them
85) When I disagree with someone, I: make my self sick about it until its fixed
86) The thing that I fear most about marriage is: that that person won't really love me
87) In-laws should: oh jeez
88) The thing I hate most is: no se
89) What I like most about myself is:that i care a lot about people
90) The same sex is: oh no!
91) When someone is angry, I: try to help
92) Women are: women?? i dunno
93) Men are: dumb
94) The best thing about the opposite sex is: no se
95) When I am angry, I: turn the music up really really loud, and sleep
96) Talking about sex feels: good to know that i can talk to that person about something that is special to me...and that he cares enough to talk about it
97) The worst thing about the opposite sex is: dumb
98) What I hate most in anyone is: Dishonesty.
99) What I admire most in other people is: Their confidence.
100) When I am my best self, I am: no se.
101) When I am my worst self, I am: no se
102) People should: stop look and listen
103) When I grow old: i will be young
104) My worst experience in life was: no se
105) Love is: best feelin in teh world
106) To me, dating: is special
107) "Til death do us part" means: Only death will separate love.
108) Falling in love is: something i am doing, against my own wishes...lol

2003-07-02T18:41:00.000-07:00

well lets see....i have nothing to say. Other than if I have to fight with one more person, I'm packin my shit and getting the hell out of here. I have one horrible friend, one evil friend, one backstabbing bitch. And no one in the middle. Well I guess I have people in the middle, and thank goodness I do. I'm not mad at anyone, well one person, but no one who reads this anyway. So i love you all to death. I have to take a bath and calm down, adios

2003-07-02T13:09:00.000-07:00

ok, well i figured out that if i do these things, it will keep me from writing my thoughts and shit in here. Which keeps me outa trouble and keeps stupid people off my back. Which doesn't really make sense why I can't say my thoughts without being critisized, i mean its not like i'm forcing you to read this. neway, i have to clean. adios

2003-07-02T13:07:00.000-07:00

last car ride: like 1/2 hour ago
last kiss: couple fridays ago
last library book checked out: mutha fucka i checked out one my frosh year and havne't since...i owe them like 50 cents
last movie seen: kissing jessica stein
last book read: a child called it
last cuss word uttered: mutha fucka
last beverage drank: pepsi
last food consumed: ramon noodles
last crush: no se
last phone call: hm...shauna last night
last tv show watched: no se
last time showered: this mornin
last shoes worn: sandles
last cd played: no se
last item bought: outftit from sears
last downloaded: no se
last annoyance: my brother
last disappointment: myself
last soda drank:pepsi
last thing written: pepsi
last key used:i
last word spoken: no se
last sleep: huh...uh like 11 something till like 10
last im: bren
last sexual fantasy:no se
last ice cream eaten: jeez i dunno, i think it was with shauna and my mom and her friend and her kids
last time amused:no se
last time wanting to die: today
last time in love: now
last time hugged: its been awhile
last time scolded: jeez like yesterday
last underwear worn: no se
last bra worn: my sports bra
last shirt worn: fca tshirt
last time dancing: no se

2003-07-01T19:20:00.000-07:00

haha..this one is good...sorry i got bored
1. When Did You Start Wearing Bras?: what...um like in 5th grade..haha my friends and i would run around in the house in our underwear..crazay kids
2. Do You Carefully Select Panties Or Are You Happy With Simple Pairs?: haha. this is funny, i have to have a specific kind..no laces, eh.
3. Does Your Lingerie Have To Match?: nah, maybe someday when I'm rich.
4. How Many People Have Seen You In Your Undies? hell ya, jeez
5. What Is Your Fave Color Of Undies?: no se
6. Have You Ever Worn A Thong Or G-String?: of course
7. Do You Normally Wear Pantyhose?: fuck no! jeebus if i have to wear them i'll wear my dance tights and usually not unless i have my leo on to keep them up. so most likely not...haha i didn't even wear them to prom
8. Do You Own Slippers?: nope, well i do, but i dunno were they would be
9. Do You Wear A Robe Out Of The Shower?: nope
10. Have You Ever Had Your Undies Removed By Someone?: haha....lol....no comment ;]
11. Have You Ever Had Your Undies Removed Forcefully?: um..not that i remember
12. Have You Ever Worn A Garter Belt?: hell no
13. Have You Ever Worn A Thigh Belt?: no
14. What Does Your Fave Pair Of Undies Look Like?: can't say that i have a fav
15. What Does Your Fave Bra Look Like?: pink
16. Has Anyone Ever Signed Your Bra?: um....no se...lol haha ;]
17. Do You Feel Comfortable Sharing Your Bra Size?: aint none of your business...lol...nah if ya wanna know just take a look yourself...mwhaha
18. Is Your Butt Big?: got big butts and i cannot lie all you other brothas can't deny..haha
19. Do You Own Edible Panties?: same that again, wait no please don't
20. Has anyone ever bought you lingerie?: lingerie, no...underwear yah
21. What would you think if a boyfriend/significant other bought you underwear?: be fine with me...;]
22. Do you get embarrassed when shopping for underwear?: nah
23. Do you show your underwear often?: lol...no se
24. Do guys snap your bra straps?: no...well uh..no
25. Have you ever thought about underwear this much before?: i can't say that i have..lol

2003-07-01T14:44:00.000-07:00

Last one today I promise!

Five details about your appearance right now:
[x] pink pants..still sorry guys
[x] hair down, just washed..lol
[x] FCA tshirt
[x]no socks...pink toenail polish
[x] no makeup ;[

Five things you did today:
[x] slept
[x] ate
[x] talked on the telefono
[x] talked on the computadora
[x] yelled at my brother

Five things that everyone should know about you:
[x] I'm not at all who you think
[x] I don't like people who think they're all that and more
[x] I'm gonna be a teach when I grow up and have lots of kids
[x] I will always listen to anyone
[x] I hate hurting people, or seeing people hurt

Five groups/artists you listened to yesterday:
[x] 3 doors down
[x] Eminem
[x] 50 cent
[x] dashboard confessionals
[x] no se

Five things that make you happy:
[x] my friends
[x] my family
[x] band kids lmao!
[x] my sears family
[x] people in general

Five things that disgust you:
[x] rude people
[x] freshman
[x] no se
[x] my brother and his many girlfriends
[x] people who are hypocrites

Five things you can't live without:
[x] friends
[x] music
[x] band
[x] sears..lmao..jk um..how bout you!
[x] food

Five things you'll do when you complete this:
[x] practice my clarinet
[x] sleep
[x] go to work with my mom
[x] think about why the fuck i'm so depressed..lmao..hehe
[x] listen to some musica

Five things you feel right now:
[x] happy
[x] sad
[x] love
[x] tired
[x] as far alone as you can be when everyone's around you

2003-07-01T11:35:00.000-07:00

Mi dia va un peque lo mejor, afloja pero mejor. !La sra. Thomsen ser a poderoso orgulloso de esto. ..digo ya eso! Tengo que ir el lavado los platos. ..hahaha...muchos divertidos. De todos modos, yo no estoy seguro muchos de ustedes tienen ninguna idea lo que esto dice, as que debo ir. adios! muchos armor

2003-07-01T09:56:00.000-07:00

k time for an update...well i have everything that i could ever ask for..well most of it. and at the current moment i'm utterly depressed. don't ask why, bc i have no idea. don't much care either. work sucks, kelli called in sick last night so amy and i had to put everytthing out on the floor by ourselves...and we were both very crabby. nick was there, he called me a scaredy cat, haha and dawn yelled at him..lol...danielle and ashley worked in the cacs. i think we figured out that kacy stoddard is ashley's friend that came from tx, she used to go to school with us in like middle school i believe. itsn't that neat! today...lets see i ahve to go to work with mom and help her...so exciting! tomorrow i have a lesson with ms. ryan at 11:30 then absolutely nothing the rest of the day! thurs i have to go to iwcc and we have a section leader mtg. my life is so wonderful. haah...well i have to get off, aparently in this house if your 12 years old, your a perfect angel and well that means that i'm second...and don't matter. go figure. well sorry for complaining...luv ya.

2003-07-01T09:52:00.000-07:00

sry guys, i'm bored and this is the only way to keep my brother off my back!

---Right Now--
WHAT COLOUR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: my pink sweats from sears
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: nothing right now
Anterrabae and The Ambition WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: uh notihng haven't ate anything since last night
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: fuck I dunno, haven't looked outside
HOW ARE YOU?: sleepy, depressed, happy, doesn't really matter

---Do you...---
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: nope
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: yah, goodness, i'm obsessive compulsive, i have so many habits it isn't funny
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: yea
LIKE TO DRIVE?: yeah most days
SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?: yah!
TYPE WITH FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS?:sure do
DRINK?: occassionally, though i wish i was now
SMOKE?: no!
ANY OTHER DRUGS?: no!
WEAR CONTACTS?: no
HAVE ANY SIBLINGS?: 1 little brother
THEIR AGES?: 12

---Favorites---
RELATIVE: i love my family, especially my gparents and my cousins
don't have fav though
TV SHOW: simpsons, boy meets world, full house, saved by the bell...old school shows! haha
COMMERCIAL: no
BOOK: chicken soup books
MAGAZINE: no
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: pop
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: whatever I can keep down
SOUND: people talking to me
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: hang out with friends
BAND OR GROUP: uhhh lots.. to many to type
SINGER: no idea!
MOVIE: dirty dancing, drumline, chicago, and tons more
FOOD:mashed potatoes and spaghetti
ANIMAL: no se...i love tapirs at the zoo
SCHOOL SUBJECT: band, language
CLOTHES: anything i can find
GIRL NAME: Emma, Alisha, Mikayla, and like millions more
HANGOUT: where the peeps are
RESTAURANT: duncuns, spaghetti works
FEELING: love,
COLOR: pink and ceralaun blue
ICE CREAM: chocolate or strawberry or neopolitan
VACATION PLACE: anywhere but here
SPORT:dance, football, whatever works
MUSIC: just bout nething
STORE: doesn't matter
DOG BREED: dude seriously, who cares
CAT BREED: eh...duh
BIRD BREED: no we're done with these questions
FISH BREED: aw this reminds me of finding nemo which my parents took me to couple weeks ago!
DAY OF THE YEAR: no se
MONTH: no se, like april or may

---Future---
IN FIVE YEARS: pry still in school
TEN: working and married, with kids
TWENTY: no se, hopefully still in love with my husband, with more kids
FOURTY: forty! jeez
MARRIGE SEASON: spring....early summer
PLACE: church
HONEYMOON: hawaii
SON'S NAME: Daniel Joseph
DAUGHTER'S NAME: Emma Mae, bc my grandma's name is Emma and her moms name has a Mae in it
GOALS: no se

---Have you---
BROKEN THE LAW: who hasn't?
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: tried no success
EVER CHEATED ON A TEST: yea
STAYED UP TILL FOUR ON THE PHONE: of course
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: can't the house is too noisy, tried it
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: no
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: yah
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: eh, no
USED YOU PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: nope
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: yeah
PEED IN THE SHOWER/BATH: ewwwww.no
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: hahahahah no
FELL ASLEEP WHILE EATING: hahaha no
FELL ASLEEP WHILE DRIVING: hahahaha no!!!
DRIVEN A CAR: yeah
EVER MET SOMEONE FAMOUS: oh God yah, when we went to AZ I saw all kinda crazay folk!
BEEN ON A PLANE: yea, once to tx and once to az
BEEN ON A MOTORCYCLE/BIKE: no, motorcycle, yes bike
WENT SWIMMING IN THE OCEAN: yeap
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: sure have
CRIED IN PUBLIC: ahha yea
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: yah
READ THE BIBLE: yah
EATEN SUSHI: nope
FISH: yea
CAVAIR: no ewwy
SEEN SOMEONE DIE: yah

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---Love---
BOYFRIEND: no se
GIRLFRIEND: um see no, my boat don't float that way sorry kids
SEXUALITY: straight
VIRGINITY EXISTANT: i'm sure you know, and if you don't it isn't your business
CHILDREN?: not currently
CURRENT CRUSH: no se
BEEN IN LOVE?: yah, sure have, sure am! though i hate it when you tell yourself not to fall in love with someone over and over, and before you know it its too late
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE:well lets see...i haven't really dating neone since my freshman year and i'm a senior..i would suppose so then
TOO SHY?: pry with most people
BEEN HURT?: yep sure have.
HAVE YOU EVER SAID "I LOVE YOU" AND MEANT IT?: I don't say those words unless i do mean it
CHEATED ON SOMEONE: no way.
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: don't regret things
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: no
HAD/HAVE AN ONLINE RELATIONSHIP: no
WHERE DO YOU WANT TO HAVE YOUR HONEYMOON?: away
WHAT'S THE FIRST THING YOU LOOK FOR IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?: smile, hair, eyes, personality

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---Medical---
FRACTURE HISTORY: my wrist twice
OPERATION HISTORY: none
ALLERGIES: jeez about everything, pollen, cats, ragweed, grass, goodness
HAD STICTCHES: no
CAVITIES: a few
PHOBIA/S: big bugs, spiders, dying

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---Name makes you think of---
RYAN: this kid that I used to go to day care with that graduated this year
AMANDA: mandie! and shaunas friend from tx
JUSTIN: ;] JD!
TIFFANY: that girl in our grade who got burnt ... haha kids are crazy
PAUL: some guy my mom works with
ABBY: no se
STEVE: moms boss
BRIAN: some guy mom works with
MISTY: my penpal in like 5th grade when we wrote letteres to the little kids Misty Dew!
PHIL: Phil Watson! aw I miss those kids
VINNY: what? no isn't there a guy in dirty dancing named vinny
JESSICA: Jessica? no se
LEAH: reminds me of Lea..not Leah...
ERIN: Erin! lol
BILLY: Billy Bob the farmer scare crow that me and my family made at the pumpkin patch
SARAH: sarah walk, she goes to TJ, i used to go to elementary school with her..she takes care of my cousin Kiersten! luv ya babe!
JOSHUA: jeez no se....try to forget bout those times
DANIEL: lol...dan..he's a good kid!
BRITNEY: um. no
CHRIS: sure

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---Pets---
CURRENT PETS: 1 dog, molly....ok the fish died! sad huh
MOST UNUSAL PETS YOU'VE HAD: none
BEST CURRENT PET: molly
HAVE YOU EVER SAVED YOUR CAT?: huh, i have a cat?

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---Random---
ROLLERCOASTERS -DEADLY OR EXCITING?: I love roller coasters
WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED AND IMPORTANT POSSESSION?: no se
WHEN YOU WAKE UP, YOU: go back to sleep
YOUR MOUSE PAD HAS ON IT: its black
WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?: flower wall paper, it was cute whenwe moved in...i was like 11
WHAT DO YOU WEAR TO BED?: whatever i have on
WHAT IS THE EARLIEST YOU'VE EVER WATCHED A MORNING MUSIC PROGRAM AT: say that again??
VEGETARIAN? VEGAN?: huh?
THINKING OF RIGHT NOW: why this is taking so long
WHAT DO YOU DO THAT REALLY PISSES OFF YOUR FRIENDS: i dunno...ask them
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: no se
AFTER SCHOOL/WORK YOU: go home or out with friends
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOUR WOULD YOU BE?:ceralaun blue
DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS?: no one sent me this
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: no se
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: 50 cent,eminem
WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: no se..most of my friends are good
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: everything

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---When/what was the last...---
TIME YOU CRIED?: yesterday
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?:from audra! couple days ago
YOU GOT E-MAIL: um today
THING YOU PURCHASED:my new outfit that i'm wearing thurs
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: saved by the bell
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: alex and emma, no wait charlies angels
TIME YOU WERE GROUNDED: no se
WORDS YOU SAID: i was yelling at my brother
WORDS YOU TYPED: I was yelling at my brother
PHONE NUMBER YOU CALLED: shauna
PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE: shauna...duh~

2003-06-30T19:53:00.000-07:00

HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Kissed your cousin: mwhaha, yah, i love my cousins! but not like that!
2. Ran away: tried to but no success
3. Broken someone's heart: Yeah...that was the suck...I didn't know it would
4. Cried when someone died: yeah
Lied: haha, yah
WHICH IS BETTER:
6. Flowers or candy: flowers
7. Scruff or Clean shaved: clean and shaved!
8. Bitchy or Slutty: eh, neither
9. Tall or Short: taller than me
10. Pants or Shorts: I prefer the jeans

WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX:
11. Last person you slow danced with: jeez, no se
12. Worst Question To Ask: fuck i dunno...why did that happen?? i dunno...maybe bc it did...or wait who cares! (i know that didn't make any sense..sry)
WHAT IS (your favorite):
13. Your Good Luck Charm: teddy bear and blanket
14. Person You Hate Most: nah..don't hate people
15. Breakfast Food: rarely eat breakfast

Who:
16. Makes you laugh the most: mis amigos
17. Can make you feel better no matter what: mis amigos, well most of them
18. Has A Crush On You: no se
19. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: yah
20. Who Has it easier? Girls or Guys?: no se...we have it good, and we have it bad..
21. Gives you A Funny Feeling When You See Them: haha...thats dirty
DO YOU EVER:
22. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night: yah, who doesn't
23. Save MSN conversations: nah
24. Save Emails: yah, proof!
25. Wish you were someone else: somedays
26. Kiss: yes ma'm!
27. Romantic memory: no se

HAVE YOU:
28. Fallen for your best friend?: oh jeez, yah, many a time again
29. Made out with JUST a friend?: haha, yah, us band folk are like that..lol
30. Been rejected: Who hasn't
31. Used someone?: no
32. Been used : i'm sure of it....happening now, happened before..bound to happen again
33. Cheated on someone?: eh, not directly, but alsdkjflsaldkjfsldkjf but i suppose so
34. Been cheated on?: no
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
35. You touched?: no se
36. You talked to?: Sam from anita
37. You hugged?: no se
38. You instant messaged?: Shauna
39. You kissed?: dunno
40. You yelled at?: Nick for calling me a scaredy cat
41. Who broke your heart?: none of your business...doens't really matter does it!
42. Who told you they loved you?: no se

DO YOU...
43. Color your hair? nope
44. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend? not really
45. Own a webcam? No...
46 Own a thong? haha yah
47. Ever get off the damn computer?uh yah
48. Sprechen Sie Deutsch? yah a little bit
49. Habla espanol? si mucho

Have you/do you/are you...
50. Schizophrenic? No...
51. Obsessive? yeah
52. Compulsive? yah.
53. Obsessive compulsive? yah
54. Panic? On occassion...
55. Anxiety? On occassion...
56. Depressed? Ocassionally

2003-06-30T19:37:00.000-07:00

Who was the last person...

{x} You touched? hm...quite confused on this one...lol...I just picked up my dog!
{x} You talked to? Shauna and Nick
{x} you hugged? oh jeez no se
{x} you instant messaged? shauna
{x} You laughed with? Danielle and Amy at work
{x} You cried about? dude, dont' ask
{x} You cried with? myself
{x} You kissed? no comment
{x} You danced with? unfortunatley ross...uh..gross I know
{x} You punched? mi hermano
{x} You bought something for? mi papa - fathers day
{x} You had sex with? uh...como estas?? tus pantalones?? um..no se

Have you/are you/do you...

{x} Have tattoos? no
{x} Piercings? ears
{x} Own a webcam? no
{x} Ever get off the damn computer? only when they say i have to
{x} Sprechen sie deutsche? ya...a little bit
{x} Habla espanol? si, muchos
{x} Ever broke the law? ummm...mwhaha
{x} Hot? no
{x} kissed a boy/girl? haven't kissed a boy/girl...duh! jeez...but yes I have kissed many a boys in my day

Currents...

{x} Current Clothes: pink pants from sears...3.56 dolores...prom shirt from frosh year
{x} Current Mood: eh, depressed
{x} Current Hair: uh...back in a mess
{x} Current Annoyance: Kelli called in sick again! 3rd time in the last month
{x} Current thing you ought to be doing: getting gas in my car
{x} Current Desktop Picture: band pic!
{x} Current Favorite Group: ummm....no se
{x} Current movie In DVD: drumline,. though i can't wait till chicago comes out
{x} Current Refreshment: pepsi
{x} Current Worry: if he really cares
{x} Current Crush: no se
{x} Current Music: 3 doors down, when i'm gone
{x} Current fear: no comment

On Dating...

{x} Long or short hair? doesn't matter
{x} Dark or blond hair? doesn't matter
{x} Tall or short? preferable taller
{x} Sensitive or Funny? both
{x} Good or bad? both
{x} Dark or light eyes? doesn't matter
{x} Hat or no hat? doesn't matter
{x} Pierced or no? no

2003-06-29T22:01:00.000-07:00

1)Would you ever date someone younger than you? Tried that once, sorry Chris..didnt work out..dont worry, I still love ya
02)Someone Older: Tried that too! Doesnt work either..but unfortunately, I dont love you.
3)Have you ever smoked weed: nope (or so she says..this is ole' shauna again! yeeehawww)
4)Ever been drunk: no comment
5)Been in love: yes
6)Loved someone who you knew you couldn't have: we are not talking about this right now
7)Gotten in a car accident: nope! well, not yet anyway
8.)Broken a bone: Yah, my wrist twice
9)Had your heart broken: mmmhmhmmm
10)Cheated on someone:oh jeez..personally no!
11)Been cheated on: no, well except for the whole reese thing..which doesnt really count because everybody and their mom knows about that
12)Last time you said I love you to someone: I told my mom I loved her last night
13)Last time you cried: yesterday
14)Last time you laughed: a few SECONDS ago..because shaunas here..DUH
15)Where do you see yourself in 10 Years? Ive just gotten out of school and I have uno kidso y married..or on the way and I am teachin at Lewis Central. The end
16)What age do you see yourself married at? as soon as i get out of school (college)
17)Describe your dream wedding: aww..Im gonna have flowers and my whole families going to be there...and my friends will be there, if they havent killed me by then..in a biiiiiiiiiiiig church, my grandmas and grandpas will sit in the front row with my mom and dad..the end
18.)Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? yes, my teddy bear that you and amadna gave me..lol er shauna and amanda obviously..and my other teddy bear my grandparents gave to me when i was little when i went to visit them in texas
20)If you could dye your hair one color what would it be: I wouldnt dye my hair..but I want like blonder highlights in my hair..than i have now
21)Have you ever been skinny-dipping: no
25)Do you eat chicken with fingers or with a fork? depends
26)Would you rather give or receive? that depends on what and whom we are talking about.
27)How many homes have you lived in? 2
28.)Do you play any instruments? nope
29)One pillow or two? none
30)Do you get along with your parents? most of the time
32)Do you drive? yes i do
33)What kind of car do you have? '89 grand am
34)Whats your favorite color(s): pink, and cerulean blue
35)Do you work: UH yes, my sears family..is like a 3rd family to me
36)Whats your favorite food: spaghetti or mashed potatoes
37)Do you have braces: i did
38.)Stupid Stuff: rumors! stupid people, freshmen! sophomores, stupid brother, thats it.
39)How many guys/girls have you kissed: like 3-4 but I dont really remember ; ]
40)When was the last time you went on a date: uuuummmmm...a few okay first of all us lewis central follk do not date..we skip all that good stuff
41)Have you ever got in serious trouble? nah
42)Why is the sky blue: somethin about the water and the reflection and all that good stuff..i dont really care anyway
43)Who was your first crush: yall know, so it really dont matter (shauna freaks out because she just typed some awful disgusting slang)
46)When you meet a person of your preferred sex, you first notice their: their smile, and their eyes, and thats it
47)Are you the romantic type: uh huh
48.)Have you ever been chased by cops: no
49)What's a secret you've never told anyone: no
50)Have you ever done drugs: no

T H E E N D

shauna was here
let me send a sh-
out out to all my.
...folk out there r
eading this little.
.shindig...mwah-
ahahahahahaha

uh okay im done

becky says hi..being as how this is her journal and all

PEACE OUT SUCKAS

2003-06-28T20:30:00.000-07:00

[*] When was the last time you, kissed someone?: 2 Fridays ago
[*]When was the last time you, danced with someone?: uh, prom
[*]When was the last time you, laughed at someone?: Just now at me (lmao this is shauna being beckys receptionist..er..lol
[*]When was the last time you, gone to the movies?: Last night with the coolest person in the world SHAUNA, Mandy, and audra
[*]What does your name mean? um I am a horrible, horrible person and on the side Im a liar..when I am not busy being a horrible person..
[*]Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? No comment
[*]How long have you been together? no se
[*]Is it serious or playful? We dont need to talk about this anymore
[*]Ever had sex? Yes, not with This Jeffrey...
just kidding
[*]Believe that a person shouldnt have sex before marriage? I believe its their decision..if it was my decision..well..we already know that answer
[*]Believe in casual sex? Eh..
[*]When do you plan/when did you lose your virginity? oh can I not answer this question
[*]Did you regret it? um well we definately cant answer this question either
[*]Have you ever snorted drink out your nose? Mhm in the 8th grade Vrba made me laugh all of the time, and this one time, milk came out my nose- now how do you go from sex..into nose? uh it doesnt make sense
[*]Have you ever said something really stupid? Yup.. like everyday.
[*]Have you ever snorted while laughing? no i really cant say that i have
[*]Have you ever fallen off a bed? I fall off the bed all the fuckin time
[*]Have you ever sleepwalked? no thats crazy
[*]Whats the first thoughts that come to your head while hearing these words?
*cheese: mouse
*rubber: duckie
*clothes : off
*big: little
*dress: off
*jacket: off
*polyester: off?
*kite: can a kite get off?
*washing: a car
[*]Whats the first thoght that comes to your head when you hear these names?
*Melissa: that reminds me of melissa volzer and makes me sad
*Bob: uncle bob
*Vanessa: my cousin has a friend named vanessa..dont know why i remembered that
*Alyssa: i dont know but i think i might name my baby that..not that im going to have a baby anytime soon
*Jess: I think were missing part of that name..theres this girl skater jess..she graduated last year..um and she has a baby and she was in my spanish class
*Brian: um if that were spelled with a y it would remind me of bryan bryan
*Charlie: we have a girl at my dance studio named charlie!
*Olivia: olivia gaten which reminds me of beth..so were done thinking about this right now
*Drew: that reminds me of drew morgan.. he played at senior stalk
*Lily: that reminds me of this girl from walnut girl..her name was april
*Anita: that reminds me of sam because he lives in anita!
[*]If world war III broke out, what would you say? im gettin the hellll outta here
[*]Which 5 people do you trust and are open with the most? You (shauna..lmao)..umm...oh god this is bad..should i be able to say more than one person? ummmm who am i open with shuana...UHHH oops...I dont know..well..I dont know..
[*]What do you think of soulmates? I dont know what I thnk anymore..somedays I think there is one person for everyone..then again somedays I think differently..today is a differently day..definately
[*]Is cussing a neccesity in life? I suppose so
[*]Do you know what 143 means? yes because shauna just informed her
[*]Is it right to flirt if you have a bf/gf? Thats really funny "aint" it? Ummm..it depends on ..umm..if youre really going out with that person
[*]Who do you want to take with you to the prom? oh we are not discussing that.
[*]What do you think of knuckle cracking? okay uh i dont know its alright with me I suppose..except for when reese does it cuz its really really disgusting
[*]Who was the last person who complimented you? is it bad if i cant remember...OH shauna just said my hair looks really nice today, wow..shauna is so funny..so nice...so talented..so AWESOME..soooo oh man..okay and now were done because becky just told me to stop commenting myself..(dont forget, shauna is typing here)
[*]What coat do you wear in the winter? my band one
[*]Would you rather go ballroom dancing or square dancing? I want to go dancing like they do on dirty dancing!
[*]Best friend(s)?: Shauna and nto jeffrey?
[*]Most trustworthy: Shauna...im bad at this game
[*]Funniest: my friends arent funny what are you talking about!? SHAUNA and jeffrey, when hes not making fun of mexicans
[*]Dumbest: Umm no comment
[*]Smartest: Justin
[*]Best Laugh: I guess Audra
[*]Best Smile: Aww Allison of course!!!
[*]Best Eyes: Okay I definately dont look at jeffs eye..you all have great eyes I spose
[*]Funnest to be with: wait a second..shauna has a comment...SINCE WHEN IS FUNNEST A WORD!?!? okay..funniest, but not..funnest..oh..OH..back to beckys thoughts...funnest to be with..uhh SHAUNAAAAAA DUH
[*]Who do you see the most?: Jeffrey, just kidding..um shauna obviously and actually Ive seen audra quite a bit lately
[*]Who have you known the longest?: Amanda
[*]Favorite Number(s): 3
[*]Favorite Letter(s): A
[*]Favorite Word: Pantolones
[*]Favorite Swear Word: I dont cuss a lot...(altough she should) and the word becky uses most accoording to shauna is....pantolones

2003-06-26T17:33:00.000-07:00

[ x ] Spell your first name backwards - ykceb
[ x ] The story behind your journal user name - well obviously it doesn't take a genious to figure that one out.
[ x ] Where do you live - iowa
[ x ] 4 words that sum you up - tired, moody, perfectionist, confused

DESCRIBE YOUR
[ x ] Wallet - its brown and doesn't have much money in it
[ x ] Hairbrush - its a brush..jeez these are crazy questions
[ x ] Toothbrush - purple and white
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily - no, i'm all for that pull the hair back and find the clothes as soon as possible. I wear a necklace to work, but i lost it.
[ x ] Pillow cover - its sesame street, i had to change it bc of the dance recital, but its mermaid as soon as it gets washed
[ x ] Blanket - my pink blanky with my cats on it that my great aunt made, she died, so i sleep with it always ; ]
[ x ] Coffee cup - hello kitty, pink, no coffee though!
[ x ] Sunglasses - we're workin on that, i have to go back to the eye guy to get new glasses
[ x ] Underwear - um..unless your...no nevermind...this is not a question that concerns you
[ x ] shoes - none :]
[ x ] Favorite shirt - my chicago band one...and my one that says dancer in blue and purple
[ x ] Cologne/Perfume - just about anything
[ x ] CD in stereo right now - sad love songs..don't ask
[ x ] Tattoos - none
[ x ] Piercings - ears
[ x ] What you are wearing now- shaunas red shorts, red/white prom shirt
[ x ] Hair - medium, brown blondish, its highlighted, but i'm gonna get it permed and colored before school starts.

WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)
[ x ] In my mouth - um...no comment
[ x ] In my head - not much thats for sure
[ x ] Wishing - why the hell no one can keep their mouth shut, and why he won't just give her up
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now - don't need to say, and my great grandpa bill..but he's dead
[ x ] Is next to you - the computer?!?
[ x ] Some of your favorite movies - drumline, chicago, dirty dancing, theres more, but i dunno
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month - excersizing
[ x ] The last thing you ate - chinese with shauna and dan
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of - dying, being alone
[ x ] Do you like candles - yes
[ x ] Do you like incense - defineitely
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood - eh no
[ x ] Do you believe in love - yes
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates - i used to, i dunno if i do right now, i believe that we all can fall in love, and have for that matter...its hard to say
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight - yes
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven - yes
[ x ] Do you believe in forgiveness - depends on who and what, frankly pry not
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die - i really don't care, i wanna be buried with my family
[ x ] Who is your worst enemy - i dunno
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be - tapir
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up - 2 days once, won't do that again
[ x ] Ever been to Belgium - no
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - duh yes
[ x ] What's your favorite coin - huh?
[ x ] What are 5 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to? Houston, i loved it there, Orlando, new york would be cool, hm...ya know i just like it right here
[ x ] What are some of your favorite pig out foods - popscicles from gmas house, spaghettios, fruit snacks, skittles
[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand? people don't understand me, frankly never will...not my prob
[ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better - why bad things happen, why people get hurt
[ x ] Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time? Sam from Anita, Jessica my cousin, i think thats it, tricia myre she was my bf in elementary, then i had to stupid move

AND:
1. What was the last song you heard? I just listened to like 3 songs from Ja Rule and then a couple from 50 cent

2. What were the last two movies you saw? alex and emma, and uh...the one with adam sadler that he becomes a millionare or something

3. What were the last three things you purchased? lipstick for recital, swimsuit from sears, chinese from the chinese place

4. What four things do you need to do this weekend? stop eating so much, hang out with my friends, stop being confused, clean my room

5. Who are the last five people you talked to? brenda, Shauna, Aaron, Dan, and hm..hotlips

2003-06-24T10:18:00.000-07:00

Virgo August 23 - September 22
Someone you thought you could never get along with is all of a sudden the person you won't be able to do without! Don't be shocked. Just go with the flow and enjoy all the fun you're about to have.

haha...so there.

2003-06-23T19:07:00.000-07:00

hey guys...recital was absolutely wonderful. It was an awesome day...even though we had to be there early. And it ended up being 4 1/2 hours...which is long. but it was the best one i've done. And my dances went awesome. THis weeks gonna go slow..but oh well. I have to work a lot so that will help. I don't feel like talking right now...i have a major headache...so i'll catch ya later. Lots of love.

2003-06-20T10:01:00.000-07:00

hey guys...well its eh...Friday. We have recital tomorrow...haha...and tonight we have rehersal from 5-8..or 9 or whenever we're good enough to stop. lol....and guess who gets to get up at 5:00 so she can be at the Orpheum at 6:45? ME...jeez. Crazy stuff. I just got back from Target..got me some lipstick..; ]. As much as I hate wearing it I suppose I will. Cashed my check...which I haven't figured out why I only have 8 more dollars then when I started the account. hm...oh well. LALA Deb put me down for 19.5 hours next week...; ] Its about freakin time...at this rate I'm gonna have to go get another job to just keep up with 20 hours a week. Nick told me that I should talk to Felicia about switching over to do cashier instead of this crap. Dawn won't schedule me for more than 14 hours a week bc of the other girls. Which is gay but Kelli will be gone soon so that'll help. But anyways i have to go finish getting my recital stuff ready. Lots of love.

2003-06-16T11:14:00.000-07:00

well I guess I know who my real friends are. Thanks guys. I'm sorry for lying to some of you, but not sorry for what I've done. I'm not sorry for falling in love, I'm not sorry for doing what I want. And I never will be. I don't care who believes me or who supports this...I just don't care. This is my problem and my desicion. I'm sorry I expected you to be happy for me. But obviously that was too much. but thats fine. Don't expect me to ever be there when you need me. No this isn't right, no it isn't ethical...but its what I feel...my heart tells me this is right. And I don't give a damn if you don't think so, its my heart. I don't care how corny that sounds or how dumb. My friends believe me and care...and if you don't...then thats your loss not mine.

2003-06-16T09:12:00.000-07:00

hey guys, its going pretty good round here. I worked yesterday and I have to work tonight. Pry a good thing, keeps me outa trouble. I got 8 hours of sleep last night, first time all summer. I went to bed at 10:30 and woke up at 12:00 to get on the computer. Then went back to bed at 12:35 and slept until 7...then I got up and took Hayley to driver's ed, then came home and slept for 45 minutes and went back down to pick her up and take her home. Then came back here and took slept for 30 minutes...so I'm good to go the rest of the day. Now if I can just get my stupid brother out of here I can have some peace and quiet. I work today, hm...I have dance tomorrow, I have dance all day on wednesday...work on thursday and hopefully babysit all day on Friday! Which would be so awesome. My cousin Zach is so cute...and his mom is supposed to have another baby pretty soon so they'll need someone to watch him! Mom said I can pry take him swimming..lol. Then Saturday is my recital and I have to freakin be there at 6:25 in the mornin! Then Sunday I have to work and then we have a store meeting...so that'll be fun. Looks like I have a busy week. Grandma and Grandpa left for Arkansas to see Uncle Dale and Aunt Belva...wish I coulda gone. But its all good, unfortunately I have responsibilities...haha...and shit like that. Yes it would be nice to sit on my butt all day and do nothing, but I'm not that fortunate. Well anyways I'm still sleepy so I'm gonna go lay down. Lots of love.

2003-06-13T09:37:00.000-07:00

Hello again! take a gander at this!

You shouldn't try to fight the feelings that run trough you today! Don't even try to rationalize them! These feelings are probably related to emotions dating back to your childhood. You shouldn't try to avoid them and don't even think about analyzing them. There will be a lot of turmoil welling up within you, dear Virgo. You should therefore try to find some peace and quiet in the arms of someone...

Thats my horoscope for today! Hell ya..aint that awesome. Well most of you have any idea what I'm talking about so I'll just be happy by myself! lol...Just trust me on this one. Anyways I'm meeting mom here pretty soon so I'll catch yall lata. Love ya!

2003-06-13T06:18:00.000-07:00

Yes well today will be another freakin awesome day! Just as yesterday was. ; ]. This is gonna be the most awesomest summer ever! Yesterday was great...I woke up at like 10 something and took a bath, course I was still sleepy bc I was on the phone until 4 in the mornin...then I chilled around the house for awhile. After I washed the dishes I went down the school and helped Mr. Bluford and Lauren with some marching band stuff! We copied music for way more than an hour. Then went to Mandie's house to drop of tickets, got home and there was strange people in my home for Nathan. So I did my thing, Shauna came over! At three ish...she got off early and then we went to ISD to workout till like 5 or something like that and I came home and ate some ravioli bc I hadn't eatin all day. Then I talked on the phone for about 3 hours to my people! And duh ok..so I was gonna get on the stupid computer at like 11:30ish and duh me falls asleep. I was sooo tired, so my padres wouldn't hurry up and go to bed and I was like ok I'll just sleep for like 10 minutes..well I woke up and it was like 3:30 in the mornin, I was so mad...but had no energy to pull myself out of bed so I just went back to sleep. Then mom woke me up at 7:30 to tell me she was leaving...and since stupid me went to sleep at 11 something I am no wide awake! URG! I can't go back to sleep which makes me quite mad...and now she wants to go to lunch at noon..which throws my plans off...but its ok. Thank goodness its friday...well not really. I hate the weekends in the summer bc everyone's home and that usually includes me unless I have to work. eh...duh! But not to worry I'm still in an absolutley wonderful mood! ; ] we get payed today...don't forget Shauna! Hopefully this will be my big check bc of Memorial day! haha...; ]. But anyways, I must go wake Nathan up since I'm not sleeping all day neither should he! Write more later. Lots of love.

2003-06-06T12:53:00.000-07:00

OMG! Well today was a fucken awesome day! My legs hurt though! aw well....so anyways...its Friday night and nothing to do...oh well. I picked up my brother from Jakes house and shuttled him around for a while till I dropped him off at the Joneses. Then I went to work to check my schedule. and came back here....and uh...I'm sitting here wandering what I'm gonna do tonight. But I'm happy, jeebus! my hair is a mess. But yah, I have to work tomorrow....and Sunday, and Monday. Our senior year is gonna be so awesome! I'm so excited. This summer is gonna be so awesome. Dale...you'd be proud of me hon! I'm so mellow right now. I love this sooooo much! Well anyways, I must go do the dishes before I have to go pick up nate...Have a great day! Lots of Love.

2003-06-05T08:16:00.000-07:00

do you ever just wake up and wonder why you're here? How you got here and what you're supposed to do here? Do you ever look at the people around you and wonder who's not gonna be there tomorrow? Better yet do you ever look at that person and ask why? I'd still like to imagine we're still in 4th grade and innocent. Perfectly innocent. Why can't it be like that? If you would to have asked me in fourth grade if I thought high school would be like this I would have smacked you for even asking such a dumb question. The reality is...its all like this. I've never cared so much about the people I'm around each day, and I've never had to wonder if they'll always be around. I've never been scared to hear the truth, but I've never wanted to not hear it all. I've never wanted to not hear something because I had better judgements in my head. Until now...we're all great kids...awesome potential, and really big hearts...but why can't we be in fourth grade still? Yeah I've been called ignorant...but I guess I'd rather be ignorant than deal with some of this. I'd rather think that we all are ok...and we'll always be ok...then wonder otherwise. I don't know street names of drugs, I don't know how much they are...and personally I don't care. If that makes me ignorant..then so be it. Last time I checked that won't get me into college, last time I checked your husband doesn't ask you that before he tells you he loves you, and your kids won't be ashamed if you don't know it. Maybe I don't want to know it, I'd simply rather think what's in my head than hear what so and so did last night. I don't want to know what so and so did when I was sound asleep...not that I don't care...I'd rather not know. And as if we haven't heard it a thousand and one times...."I know what its like to be in high school".....the hell you do. I don't believe when you we're in high school that girls we're getting pregnant left and right, I don't believe that drug deals we're being made down your street involving 15 year olds. I don't believe that the majority of your grade is high or drunk all the time. Course I wasn't there...so I don't know...but I do know things have changed. By all means I'm far from perfect...and I'm not as innocent as I'd like to be...but there's a huge difference. One day at a time...just gotta keep telling myself that...one day at a time.

2003-06-04T15:35:00.000-07:00

hello again...well today has been one of those uneventful days...I'm not in the mood to be with anyone and I'm sleepy. I didn't call him...someday I will. I just don't have enough umph to do it now. Too SCARY! But its all good, even at that I'll see him during band camp. Which I wish was sooner. I talked to Justin about it...well it isn't excately what I wanted to hear, but its what I thought he'd say. Its the truth, I mean he does have a girlfriend. But where can you get with someone who's still in middle school. And if you don't know what I'm talking about don't jump to any conclusions Justin reassurred me that this would not be another *you know who* situation. So...and if anything else we can just be friends, which I think would prolly be best...he's an awesome person, and we get along real well...and believe it or not he's extremely easy to talk to. So and beyond what everyone thinks he's not a bad kid, or any worse than the rest of us. And no..I'm not gonna be out every night being a horrible person all summer...to those of you who "care". But anyways, Dale and Lauren, Reese and I might go out for breakfast tomorrow! Which would be totally awesome! But who knows...I'm really looking forward to spending a lot of time with all of them this summer...hopefully ; ]! But anyways, I'm gonna go figure out some other things...my daddy went out and got a new computer so this is weird still. So, lots of love to you all! And be safe please...don't do anything I wouldn't do. mwhahah ; ]. Peace

2003-06-02T12:39:00.000-07:00

How do you know when to move on?
or for that matter how?
Were we ever in real love?
and why aren't we now?
Why does it have to feel like this?
and why don't you seem to care?
When do you know to accept the challenge?
or if its worth the dare?
Where do you go when you're so far in love?
and how do you get there from here?
Why in my heart does this feel so good
but my heads so full of fear?
When will I know what to do next?
and how will I know if it's right?
Do I enter the next open door?
and how do I know if there will be light?
When will I know all these answers?
and how will I know if they're true?
I'll know them all someday but they'll change
each time with someone new.

2003-05-31T19:01:00.000-07:00

Hello...its Saturday, its gonna be a long summer...Last night was awesome, don't worry I won't go into details. But yah. Today I worked from hm...10 until 2 and then went to dance from 3:45 until 5:30 and came home and got dressed and went to Hayley's to help her with her brother's graduation party, which by the way was absolutely awesome! ; ] no joke! And I just got home, I'm prolly gonna go out with some kids tonight after 10...my padres are at the MAC center at the Styx concert, which bites bc I wanted to see that but its all good. They took me to see Def Leppord a while back so its all good. So they won't be home till late and mi hermano is at grandma's house. So I'm home alone! Hell ya! But anyways, I'm gonna go watch Drumline, peace..lots of love

2003-05-30T19:52:00.000-07:00

hi, well schools out, sadly enough. This summer's gonna be great though! I'm working a ton of hours and lots of shopping! And Shauna and I are gonna work out a lot and eat healthy! And this guy I work with helped me pick out a swim suit and its super cute! I get paid tommorrow...amen! I feel so much older, my padres opened me a checking account a while back and I can deposit my checks now, I can go where ever pretty much as I want to within reason of course. My padres are letting me go out after 10 tonight! Imagine that...and with people they don't really know! So, neway I have to go back to the school Monday to pay for my Drum Core ticket for July and sadly enough I was down there twice today. Helped Mr. Bluford clean out folders and throw crap away. But I'm gonna go get dressed, so peace. Lots of Love.

2003-05-27T13:40:00.000-07:00

hi! well this weekend was interesting, Friday night we went to Ellen's party, and to the mall. Saturday we went to Audra's and then home...and to Kristine's and then to work. Sunday Shauna came over at 10:30 and we got ready and ate spaghettios, but she couldn't decide what to wear so we had to call Audra and then had to run to her house. Needless to say we weren't early..lol..but on time. Oh well...Gibby was at Audra's : ]! He's a funny guy! anways we got to graduation and it wasn't as bad as I expected, it wasn't easy but I was tired so it wasn't that bad. Then Shauna and I went back to my house to pick up and I directed her in the general area of Lauren's house...lol....oh and we went to Melissa's party. Well hm...Sunday I worked from 11-7, but we got time and a half so I made more than 80$ so thats awesome. My family came over here, but I wasn't here so I suppose that doesn't matter. Then I was supposed to go to this interview but that didn't happen...we went to my Aunts so I could see my baby cousin, but she was sleeping. Then came back here and realized I still had homework to do. Well I stayed up till 2 somthing this morning working on it...and its still not done. Didn't have any time to study for any of my finals. Lost all my appetite...and am extremely exhausted. Well I have to work on my Algebra tonight and I have dance, so I guess it never ends. And this lady pulled out in front of me when I was coming home from Sears this afternoon ( to pick up my pink pants ) so I honked of course! and urg! she pulled out in front of me again at the stop light! I hate people like that. Freakin A...Youre at the grocery store, but it doesn't give you special driving privelages...that I know they don't sell there!!!! Then I got down to the other light and my car died...its tired too...can't blame it. So I put it in park and turned it off and then turned it back on again and it was ok...lucky this time. It just wasn't my day. And I forgot my checks for the music guy today! oh well tomorrow will be better...hopefully ; ] Peace...Lots of Love.

2003-05-21T20:30:00.000-07:00

i'm back...And do not sit there and say we're friends and treat me like that. And some best friend ya got there...one minute she's a bitch and the next she's supposed to bend over and kiss your ass???!!!??? well here in land of make believe i guess its understandable. But its cool...and if you think you can't trust me look in the mirror. I'm 16 I can take care of myself. I don't need someone who's barely a year older than me approving every move I make. I managed fine until 7th grade...I can manage fine now. Lots of Love.

2003-05-21T16:48:00.000-07:00

well hello again, its been a long day. Well lets see we went 3 days w/o fighting so this was bound to happen I suppose. I ( am course) am a horrible powerful and feel good about myself person. And thats not gonna change. I sure as hell am not gonna change my life for someone who calls me a bitch one minute and a friend then next. No ma'm! It was fine in 7th grade, ok in 8th and we're in 11th now and its far from fine. But you know what the funny thing is, I don't care anymore. I don't need friends like that. I don't deserve to be treated like that, and my friends don't either. I can only take this for awhile before I really get pissed. and 5 years is beyond awhile. But on a good note, we are almost out of school, and I am almost done with dance. so thats awesome, and mom opened me a checking account..and sadly enough my first check will be to the reed guy! but i'm about to go to dance so I'm out. And I want no emails about this, no notes about this, I don't need to hear anyone elses problems. I've got other people to worry about. lots of Love, Becky

2003-05-19T14:25:00.000-07:00

Hi...guess what I'm at work sitting her helping Shauna with her training. I have to work till 9 tonight : / oh well...thats 4 1/2 hours for me!!! yah! mkay I called the lady that was on the announcements about babysitting her 20 month old little kid..and she said she'd call me back! that would be so awesome if I could get two jobs this summer. lots of $$. amen sista! ick! we had to start disecting our cat today in Anatomy and it was mighty gross!!! we had to get all the skin off it...ehhhehehe...Mr. Campell is bribing us to see which group can get done the fastest! lol...well Shauna says hi! She's almost done with her training! Then Felicia is gonna put her on the schedule. ; ) well I have to clock in in a few minutes so I'm out. Lots of Love, Becky

2003-05-17T21:42:00.000-07:00

hello....well this weekend has been an eventful one at that. Friday night I went to Romeos with mi padres and mi hermano and then went to the mall...ended up going home with Shauna who was working on her training. Spent the night there...which was sad bc I slept better there then I do at my house...lol. She fixed us french toast when we woke up...; ) and mom and daddy picked me up. then we went home and got ready to go to joneses house...which we spent 2 hours at...but it was really fun ; ) Then we went back home and I got ready for dance and haha went back to the joneses to pick up Beth for dance. Unfortunately spent 2 hours at dance and then mom and daddy picked us up and we went home and I changed for work, and met Shauna in the training room at 5:45 then worked till 9. Shauna and Mandie came around 8:40 and chilled round the store till I clocked out and then I drove mi carro home and they met me there and we went to Shaunas to watch movies. We finished watching Purple Rain which was a really cool movie. Then we took Mandie home at 11:15 and then Shauna took me home, which brings me to now...I'm typing and talking to Shauna....lol....and mi hermano is at the joneses-imagine that-so I getta stay up late.!! Some start to this week huh? Tomorrow we're going to my cousins graduation party and then the NHS ceremony and then to Shannon's graduation party! so well moms yelling so I'm out.ttyl..lots of love

2003-05-16T14:13:00.000-07:00

Last phone call: on the phone with shauna right now!
Last TV show watched: hm...Saved by the Bell this morning
Last Item Bought: hm..good question...arbys at the mall I believe.
Last time showered: last night :|
Last shoes worn: my beigy like ones
Last CD played: a mix beth gave me
Last downloaded: i dont' member
Last annoyance: dont' ask...read whats below
Last disappointment: myself
Last soda drank: Mr. Pibb
Last thing written: a poem
Last key used: m^
Last word spoken: I don't care what you think! (to my hermano)
Last question asked: Why does she act like this?
Last trip to the bathroom: dude uh this morning during band.
Last sleep: in Spanish class :]
Last IM: to Hotlips
Last person to give you a compliment: jeez..thats just depressing I'd have to say Justin or Shauna
Last sexual fantasy: um...no most definately not
Last weird encounter: YOUR FACE
Last Store Shopped at: dude, I dunno...Target...??
Last ice cream eaten: With reese at Tastee Treet
Last time amused: aw...i'm always amused
Last time wanting to die: eh, this morning
Last time in love: eh, we don't think about things like that..its been a while.
Last time hugged: reese yesterday
Last time scolded: last night
Last time resentful: always!
Last chair sat in: the one i'm in?
Last underwear worn: uh...the ones i have on
Last shirt worn: Titans blue one, and this sweater i found in the band lost and found thats a LC one and its mine now! mwhahaha...
Last class attended: Espanol
Last Final taken: um..that would have to be..a spanish final
Last time dancing: prom...well if you call that dancing
Last time sick: eh...last saturday
Last poster looked at: idk
Last concert attended: Def Leppord
Last webpage visited: this one

2003-05-16T13:42:00.000-07:00

well today was a shity day...but what else is new. well it wasn't really that bad, it was just a blah kinda day. Besides the fact that my friend-well actually just one friend-talks about me behind my back, and treats me like shit everything else isn't going to bad. But I suppose I did deserve to be ignored and stabbed in the back. It all makes sense, especially since this issue was solved two days ago. But thats fine, jealousy doesn't do this to people, envy doesn't either, its just people who treat people like this. And no I'm not gonna talk to her, she has shown that she doesn't care about me so I'm not gonna waste my energy. I know she's got things on her mind, but so do I, but the thing is she doesn't care. She has no idea whats going on in my life...and thats fine...I don't want to waste anyones time. I have friends, I have friends that treat me decent, and I have friends who care about me. but, I've gotta go...so I'll talk to you later. Lots of Love.

2003-05-14T15:54:00.000-07:00

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2003-05-14T15:43:00.000-07:00

hey there kids! well today was a great day... we finally got the results back from the wind ensemble auditions and Dan Gulden and I got the two chairs in the clarinet section and Kevin-Travis got the bass clarinet chair because he came in third. Ross is upset because he did the worst and he knows it, but he was pretty immature about it, he critisized me for practicing and then denounced our band...which doesn't make sense because he was trying out to be in our band! clearly...duh. But I definately told him that that was pretty lame and especially since Kevin-Travis was sitting right there and freshman follow our lead. So he isn't very happy right now, but I don't much care. And other than that things between all of us have settled down, for the most part. Theres a little bit of tension but its tolerable. Its a good thing we all love each other so much, because this was a close call! Well anyways, first hour today we reviewed in Anatomy which actually wasn't that bad...second hour Mr. Drake wasn't there so Mrs. McCormick gave us the test and then we talked for the rest of the hour. Uh, Algebra actually its awesome because I understand what we are doing now so thats really cool. And band went well ...Shauna went to look to see what tapes were accepted for auditions bc i was too scared ; )..lol. And lunch was exciting, went pretty well. Oh, I told Dale that I got the chair and he was really happy for me, so that was really awesome. He listened to my scales and E-tude on Friday and it really surprised me...he told me I'd be fine and that I sounded really really good. So that was really cool. I'm gonna try out for all-state on bflat so I'm really determined now. But well I'm gonna go get ready for dance class...who woulda thunk??? You kids should come to my recital...its gonna be awesome this year! Peace. Lots of Love.

2003-05-11T18:12:00.000-07:00

hi..its uh a, b, c...oh sorry uh its Sunday...hehe. Eh, well its been a weekend, and a long one at that. Shauna and I spent all night together on Friday and watched the bestest movie of all...Drumline! and we had a band thing on Sat. Which we were there from 730 till like uh..5 I believe....but we went home and to the mall so it wasn't too bad. Everyone got a one...so congrats!! I'm mighty proud. Today we went out for breakfast and I got cheerios and a banana and then I worked from 12-5. I'm home now..obviously..just finished have a package of ramon noodles...and wrote a schedule of graduation things I have to go to...My couz Jason is graduating from TJ so I get to see a bunch of kids I went to school with when I was little. Thats really awesome. But yah, I'm pretty sleepy...so I'll write mah lata. Lots of love...and for all of those who are wondering I do feel better. Luv ya!

2003-05-11T17:10:00.000-07:00

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2003-05-05T16:57:00.000-07:00

Hi ; ) Todays Monday, eh...mondays are horrible. This morning I did Shauna's hair and then we got to school and well I was sick to my stomach until about 5th hour. I spent most of first hour in the nurses office, which accomplished nothing, I was tempted to go home, but I didn't figure that sitting at home would solve anything so I didn't. We played a game during Drakes' class so that was pretty cool and it made my tummy feel a bit better. I slept in algebra, but I really can't help it, I just can't focus in that class. I don't get much sleep and well I haven't been feeling real well lately. And with all this fighting it kinda wears me out. Anyway, band went alright, and Jamie Taylors sis was our sub in PD so that was pretty cool...I didn't think she'd remember me ; ). And spanish was real good...I don't understand why everyone has to be so mean to Mrs. Thomsen...she's really nice. I want to learn and its a bit hard to when everyone else makes it hard for her to teach. oh well...I came home at about 4 after sitting in the band room with Shauna and Justin...and feel asleep on the couch watching the Simpsons... ; ) I woke up when mom got home at 6, and daddy had hamburgers and maccaroni...I hate hamburgers...eh. Oh well thats the first thang I ate all day, besides my one cracka this morning. And now I'm talking to Justin and Ross...I'm gonna go take a bath pretty soon and watch t.v. for a while then go to bed, really early. It sounds like everyones getting sick...which is funny kinda since one of us gets sick we all do...but its nice though. I haven't slept this much fo a long time...and its not a bored sleep, I'm like exhausted! : ( Oh well...John told me I was invited to his graduation party...so that like made my whole day! Its so awesome to be able to talk to people outside of what I'm familiar with...and despite what other people think all of them have treated me so nice. And its nice to have someone who cares that doesnt' know me very well...; ) well I'm gonna go i'm getting sleepy again. Lots of Love

2003-05-04T13:29:00.000-07:00

hi ; ) this weekends going really well...other than the fact that I have to work tonight. Shauna and I went to the mall after school on Friday, and then she came over on Saturday and we ran around town for a while. Then eventually came back here and did our hair and makeup for the band concert...it was fun! yay! lol...then we left to meet our padres at the school. It was senior night so it was pretty awesome, and Gibby got a standing ovation...so that was most definately the best part. Honestly I've never cried at a band concert till now! hm...not sure if thats a good thing or not. Neway...unfortunatly the fighting is not over. Trust me I woulda loved to come over and spend the night with the rest of the girls...however it seems to me that I wasn't invited nor was Shauna...and we aint gonna sit around and wait to be either. Once again I'm stuck in the middle, this time I'm not going out of my way to pleaz anyone. This is my life and I'm gonna do what I want. I'm not gonna waste it away wishing I coulda been better friends with everyone. I'm happier now then I was before...despite all the fighting. I feel safer at school, and I know that if something goes wrong I at least have one person I can count on to be there. And I don't have to worry from one day to the next if my friends are gonna be there. I don't worry so much and I'm a lot closer to people...well those that care anyway. Well I'm gonna go play video games with nate and nathan. Lots of Love

2003-05-01T13:34:00.000-07:00

Hey, its uh...Thursday, man its been awhile. I've been pretty busy. Sadly enough things aren't any better well they are but as far as between "the group" they're getting worse. I have heard stuff from certain people which actually really hurt, we've been friends since 7th grade and a boy you've known for a couple years you seem to care more about then any of us. But yes, that doesn't surprise me with all thats happened in the last few weeks. But on a happier note...Dr. Tim was awesome! were really excited about marching band...so thats neat. And dance is going great. No class on saturday halleluia! And oh we have a concerto on Saturday! oh loads of fun. But yes, the whole senior thing has gotten better slowly but surely. Well I'm gonna go, Peace.

2003-04-27T15:27:00.000-07:00

Well yah its Sunday like a whole bunch of days pass the last time I wrote. And believe it or not not a whole lot has happened. We went to prom...and it was ok I suppose...nothing earth shattering but it was nice. People are really getting on my nerves lately, uh suddenly if you are a senior you automatically get whatever you want and the world relvolves around you, well hm...think what you wish but don't come crying to me in the fall when you have no friends. Thats one thing I can not stand...no one is better than anyone else and just because you are older than me doesn't give you magical powers...and if it does your going to the wrong school. That and really how mature is it to not talk to me because your mad at one of my friends? For seniors you sure as hell don't act like one. Like I'm really gonna go tell her what you said or go spread some nasty rumor about you...no sorry I have other things to do. URG!! Well thats all I'm gonna say...I'll write mah lata...Peace.

2003-04-18T15:35:00.000-07:00

Hi, Its still Friday, and well I guess like a whole bunch of people are mad at Shauna and I. Which is really dumb if you ask me, if your gonna be mad at someone at least have enough desency to tell them. And the funny thing is its over something really really dumb...like you don't know why we do it so don't judge us. K, well most of you have no idea whats going on, but thats ok, someday you'll understand. But what I don't get is that I haven't done half the things that most people my age have, yet I get critisized for it and they don't...I am a junior so maybe I'm dumb, but that just doesn't make sense. I'm not other people I couldn't even imagine doing half the stuff they do, and well its just silly. But Shauna's picking me up in 10 minutes..so I guess things will be ok, after all of us go at it...which kinda scares me bc we have never been in a fight where all of us were mad at each other...but its all good. Peace.

2003-04-18T13:52:00.000-07:00

[name] Becky
[home] Council Bluffs :]
[age] 16
[birthday] 9/6/86
[grade] junior
[class of] 04'
[sign] Virgo
[eye color] brown
[hair] brown with natural golden highlights
[bf/gf] not at the current moment
[school] Lc..the land of make believe!
[clothing style] it doesn't matter really, nething thats comfy.
[pets] one doggie, molly...our fish died : (

*favorites*
[band] i don't care, I like most all kinds of music
[music genre] ^
[color crayon] blue or pink
[juice flavor] I love any kind of juice : )
[cereal] hm...I love Lucky Charms..oh and Cheerios!
[jolly rancher flavor] Hm...grape or cherry I suppose
skittle flavor] haha...I love skittles..hm..prolly the blue ones
[color m & m] i dunno
[kind of cookie] oreos with milk : )
[hangout] mwhahaha the band room! or dance, basicall with my friends. Doesn't really matter.
[day] Thursday or Friday
[month] June or August
[season] spring or fall...mostly spring
[shoes] ones that fit!
[restaurants] I love Duncans in town..and spaghetti works!
[cars] hm..doesn't really matta...though I've always wanted at baby pink pick up truck!
[star wars character] mwhahah Chewbacca
[simpsons character] Maggie ; ) *suck *suck
[kitchen appliance] hm...knifes..hahah...I don't know I like the juicer things or potato peelers those are fun!
[color of lava lamp] Pink
[person to talk to online] whoevever
[person to talk to on the phone] whoever calls..what kinda question is this?!?
[memories] most involve band! sadly enough. But yah, we won't get into details.

*this or that*
[boxers or briefs?] boxers
[plaid or striped?] ehhh plaid
[urban legend or the faculty?] eh both are good
[star trek or star wars?] well if I had to choose Star Wars bc I've never been able to sit through star trek
[alt or rap?] rap prolly
[ska or punk?] punk
[classical or country?] country
[salt or pepper?] ew I hate pepper.
[coke or pepsi?] coke
[dr. pepper or mr. pibb?] Mr. Pibb or Dr. Pepper don't matter
[sprite, slice, or 7-up?] sprite
[skittles-original, tropical, or wildberry?] the purple package..which eva one that is
[m & m's-regular, peanut, peanut-butter, or almond?] regula
[hershey's-hugs or kisses] kisses
[jolly ranchers or jolly rancher bubble gum?] ehhh..jolly ranchers
[v-8 or hi-C?] uh..bc theyre completely opposite...uhh hi-c I suppose
[ken or barbie?] hm...I like Skipper!
[bleh or blah?] bleh
[okay, ok, or o.k.?] okay
[shake or stir?] shaken please
[pens, crayons, pastels, or colored pencils?] MARKERS :|
[bright colors or dark colors] bright
[snap,crackle, or pop?] pop
[half-empty or half-full?] half full
[adidas, nike, fila, or reebok?] hm...adidas
[sunshine or rain?] depends I prefer raining while the suns out
[rain or snow?] rain
[sun or moon?] moon
[silver or gold?] silver
[frogs or toads?] when we went to day care my aunt used to have all these froggy toad things and we used to pick them up and it was pretty neat : )
[cds or cassettes?] cds
[wild or mild?] I believe the question is who cares?
[rupaul or dennis rodman?] dennis rodman definately
[bsb or nsync?] uhh no!
[keyboards-the normal kind or the separated kind?] uh..getting too hi-tech on me...the normal kind?

*short answer*
[left handed or right handed?] right handed
[are you smart?] whatever you want
[whats your middle name?] Lynn
[how many personalities do you have?] well I'm sure you know more than I do, but I can be nice most of the time...I get obsessive over certain things though...and I'm very moody.
[how many piercings do you have?] ..my ears :/
[tattoos?] nope
[do you like v-8?] how bouts no?!
[what was your first word?] I don't remember
[are you superstitious?] sometimes
[do you read your horoscope?] yes ma'm
[do you believe in that stuff?] sometimes I usually read them at the end of the week
[can you do a cartwheel?] no...but I dance thanks and come again.
[do you have bangs?] yes
[can you drive?] yes, praise the LOWD
[what do you drive?] my car
[do you lick your envelopes or use a sponge?] hm..i prefer licking thanks...i don't have sponges just lying around my house...but maybe I'm strange that way?!?
[do you keep a journal?] no
[what languages do you know?] English somedays and spanish
[what's the best awards show?] idk
[do you like cotton candy?] yeah, I get cravings for it at hockey games but then I get mad bc my hands get sticky
[do you like pina coladas?] sure do!
[what do you sleep in?] my pjs :]
[how many pillows do you have?]2 regula and one body pillow, but I sleep on my stomach so when I wake up theres no pillows on my bed.
[how many cds do you have?] idk
[how many times have you moved houses?] twice
[is your room messy?] always..so I always have to clean it
[do you like your handwriting?] sometimes
[do you like to fingerpaint?] definately..every thursday at IWCC
[do you sleep with a stuffed animal?] yah
[do you sleep with socks on?] I cant sleep with my socks on..unless im really tired..it bugs me
[are you ticklish?] yes
[is your house 1, 2, or 3 floors?] 2
[do you have a basement or an attic?]both
[did you go to preschool?] yep
[are you a morning person?] fuck no
[do you like classical music?] sometimes

*hard questions*
[would you rather be tall or short?] how bout medium?!?
[would you rather burn to death or freeze to death?] um..i'm not dying thanks!
[do you think guys or girls have it easier?] guys of course
[would you eat a bowl of live crickets for $40,000?] nope sure wouldn't...I like to work for my money...and thats not to be taken in the wrong way--you sick juniors!
[if you had a band what would you name it?] hm...idk
[gonna go to college?] yes
[where do you want to live?] I'm good herr in CB thanks
[if you had to dye your hair right now, what color would you make it?] golden blonde
[if you had to get a body piercing right now where would it be?] cartlige
[if you had to get a tattoo right now, what would it be?] a butterfly, bc my gma always tells us that great gma sends us rainbows and butterflies from heaven : )
[if you were gonna be stuck on a deserted tropical island forever with one other person who would you want it to be?] i'm not sure

01. what do you think of the way you look? bleh
02. what do you think about your attitude? it fluctuates
03. what do you think about the first person that loved you? like love love or like love...cuz i'd have to say that all the guys that say they loved me lied...so i guess i don't know..but my baby cousin Karagin tells me she loves me so thats pretty neat!
04. what do you think about karma? strange
05. what do you think about love? most wonderful feeling in the entire world...even though it hurts.
06. what do you think about fate? I dono..I believe in it?
07. what do you think about yourself? I don't know
08. what do you think about the french? mwhaha those are some pretty gay hats they wear!
09. what do you tell yourself when times get hard? turn on the freakin music, open the window, quit bitching and go to sleep
10. what would you give your life for? my friends and family and beliefs
11. what was the saddest moment of your life so far? I don't know, I'm a pretty content person...when my great gpa died though that hurt real bad, I was like there and they didn't tell me--even though I knew, and then waited like a week or so and told me...it was really sad
12. what would life be without friends? it wouldnt be life
13. what would life be without family? impossible

.about dreams
14. do you dream a lot at night? yes
15. do you dream in black and white, or colour? color..wtf do people spell color, "colour" anyway?
16. do you remember any of your dreams? some of them
17. where is your dream make-out spot? I dont know? I dont like FANTASIZE about making out
18. what is your dream kiss like? hm..I can't say I remember, my dreams are offsprings of whats about to happen in the close future when I remember them...and I usually don't remember that kinda stuff.
19. what is your dream job? teacher
20. where is your dream house? no where bc it hasnt been built yet
21. do you think i'm too sexy for milan, new york and japan? huh repeat that in words that a LC junior can comprehend

.do you ..
27. .. write in a journal or diary? journal
28. .. keep an organizer? no I'm pretty organized as it is
29. .. believe in love at first sight? yes
30. .. believe that every person has one soul mate? sometimes, I used to have no doubt about it, but these days I don't think so, I think that we can fall in love with anyone, but I suppose there is someone close to perfect for everyone
31. .. believe in having a good education? uh..wtf? sure
32. .. believe in horoscopes? yesss
33. .. believe in yourself? ehh..sometimes.
34. .. shower daily? yes
35. .. like this survey so far? sure
36. .. like the person that sent you this/posted this? I dont know them..I copied it off someones site bc I was bored..but it NEVER ENDS
37. .. cry easily? yes
38. .. believe in heaven / hell? yes
39. .. believe in god? ^
40. .. believe in angels/ghosts or other such things? yes

.favorites
41. day of the week: Thursday and Friday
42. ice-cream: chocolate or strawberry, but I like the orange juice freezes at tastee treet
43. movies: Dirty Dancing, Monsters Inc,Lilo and Stich ;x , Romeo and Juliet, DRUMLINE!!!!, and uhh Bringin down the house
44. actors: idk
45. actresses: idk
46. quote: To the world you are one person, but to me you are more than the world! and thats the honest to goodness truth
47. holiday: christmas
48. season: fall/spring
49. colors: blue and pink
50. flowers: white rose dipped in blue
51. school subject: ...does band count?
52. town: CB is ok, I loved phoniex when I was there though, and kingwood in TX
53. country: uh
54. drink: coke, mr. pibb, strawberry daquiriis
55. food: spaghetti or mashed potatos
56. thing to wear: pjs or dance stuff..sadly enough...but suprisingly not my band uniform those things are hell!
57. music: everything..but mostly rap
58. page on the internet: idk
59. place in your house: eh, my bed/room
60. animal: puppy :] and I like penquins
.relationships
61. crush/boyfriend/girlfriend's name: no comment, if you dont' know theres prolly a good reason you don't
62. what is a big turn on for you? mwhaha...no comment..but i love it when I see guys our age like playing with little kids, its really cute : )
63. where does that special someone live? CB
64. things you like in the opposite sex? personality
65. when was your first kiss? sadly enough I was 14
66. do you ever look at yourself in the mirror and start crying? not here lately?!
67. the most fucked up thing you've ever done to get someones attention is? well if you were in MS with me i'm sure you remember more than I do
68. which is more important - personality or looks? personality
69. favorite position, top or below? no comment...and no freakin ideas
70. have you had sex? most definately not!

.creative questions
71. if you had the chance to speak with william shatner what would you say to him? ??
72. what color do you think best describes you and why? pink or yellow....
73. if you could be doing anything right now, what would you be doing? definately sleeping..or hangin out w/ friends
74. does the idea of leprechauns scare you? no reminds me of smurfs though, i don't know why though
75. have you ever wanted to make someone cry for no reason? nope
76. have you ever written on a mirror? yes...is there any relevance in this question?
77. if you could change one thing you did in the last 24 hours, what would it be and why? i don't believe nething relevent.
78. do you prefer sleeping outside beneath the night sky, or your cozy bed: in my bed or on the floor or couch or somewhere
79. what is the most beautiful thing in the world? love : )
80. name one person whose changed your life for the better: my friends...every last one of them : )
81. did gym class or team sports traumatize you as a child? nope...but if we wore dresses on gym days we wouldn't have to do push ups...at walnut grove
82. if you had to let go of a really loud fart who would you be most comfortable around? hm...duh!
83. if someone could pop their eyeballs right out of the sockets would that impress you? no, eyes make my eyes water
84. if you could meet anyone, past or present, dead or alive, who would you meet and why? dono
85. what makes you you? me?

.school: have you ever ..
86. skipped school? i don't believe so
87. skipped a class? yah, well after our band lessons in MS we used to hide in the girls bathroom...kinda scared like...and in HS every once in a while when Leslie doesn't being her key to gym..but I have it now, so its all good.
88. slept through a class? parts of them yes
89. thrown things at the teacher, and what did you throw? no can't say I have
90. done mean things to people in your class? sure
91. cheated on tests? mwahaha
92. plagarized? not really
92. copied someone else's work? yes
93. been suspended, and for what? nope!
94. been expelled, and for what? no
95. had detention? no! i've never got a detention
96. brought a weapon to school, and what was it? nope
97. stolen something from someone at school? eh i dont think so..well from like friends..but that doesnt count
98. had drugs in your posession at school? no
99. harrassed anyone in school? all the time
100. bought a teacher a flower? lolol no

.home: have you ever ..
102. snuck out and been caught? nope
103. snuck out and got away with it? eh
104. hit a family member? hell yah
105. been grounded for a month or more? no
106. had a party at your house unsupervised? uh no
107. broken something & lied about it? yes ;x
108. stolen money from your family members? pocket change
109. had a fistfight with your sibling? no i'm all for that yelling loud enough that the neighbors come over
110. gotten in trouble for bad grades? yah, but only once, i got a D in geometry : (

.drugs: have you ever ..
111. smoked cigarettes? no
112. drank alcohol? yes
113. been so drunk you passed out? no
114. puked from drug usage? no
115. sniffed permanent markers or white out to get "high"? lol..not to get "high"..just cuz permanent markes smell good
116. smoked the killer weed (marijuana)? fuck no
117. smoked the killer weed (oregano)? no
118. taken any pill medication that wasn't prescribed to you? yah
119. smoked crack, or any other drug? never
120. tried heroin in any form? no
121. tried x? no
122. candy flipped? no! being as I don't know what that is?!?
123. bought illegal drugs? nope
124. sold illegal drugs? what..NO!?
125. had an adult or older person buy you alcohol or cigarettes?nope
126. stolen alcohol or cigarettes from a store? no
127. driven drunk or under the influence of anything? eh
128. done any unusual drugs? nope
129. tried inhalants? no
130. took sleeping pills? yes
131. took caffeine pills? no
132. used 3 or more drugs at once? nah
132. tripped acid? no!!!
133. hallucinated? LOL UH NO..not bc of a drug anyway
134. taken a drug & swore you'd never take it again because of something that happened? nooo
135. overdosed? no!
136. taken something you didn't know what it was? no!
137. played a game such as "who will get the drugs"? no! HOLY SHIT THIS NEVER ENDS
138. been in a drinking contest? no
139. won a drinking contest? no
140. gone to school/work on drugs? no!
141. been caught by your parents or any adult while you were on drugs? no!!!!!

.misc: have you ever ..
142. stolen anything minor (small things)? eh yah when I was little :|
143. stolen anything major (expensive)? no
144. robbed a store/person? nope
145. been caught stealing? no
146. vandalized anything? no
147. stolen anything not from a store? nah
148. tampered with other people's mail? nope well do my padres count?
149. driven illegaly? yeah
150. ran from the cops? no
151. been busted by the cops for anything? nah
152. been arrested? no
153. had charges on anything filed against you? no
154. been to court? nope
155. been convicted of any crime? nope
156. broken in to any place? no
157. spraypainted anything? nah..dont think so?
158. harassed anyone? no
159. done anything under the age of consent (drink, etc.)? yes
160. had sex under the age of consent? no
161. hit or harmed anyone? yes
162. broken into anyone else's stuff online? yes
163. hacked a persons computer or website? nah. Well. er. ill stfu now.
164. commited adultery? no
165. been banned from any place for any reason? nope
166. had a restraining order against you? no..but feel free! that would be cool :|

THE END! finally!

2003-04-18T12:17:00.000-07:00

Hey its Friday and there is nothing to do : ( Shauna couldn't come ova last night so I just went to bed...but its all good. Kristine and I went to Trisha's house this morning for the easter egg hunt--which was rained out--but we still got the eggs. Then her mom made us sloppy joes! At the current moment I have 4 boys running around my house driving me crazy...and of course its icky outside bc there in herr with me! But oh well : ) I got a letter from Mr. Gibson last night congratulating me on solo and ensemble contest. That was pretty awesome. And tonight will be fun...mwhahahaha...And the best part is we can get away with it all!!! mwhahaha, like us band kids do anything bad?!?!?!? Everythings going just like normal. But I'm gonna go attack the brats upstairs or run away--far far away! Peace.

2003-04-17T19:33:00.000-07:00

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2003-04-17T19:26:00.000-07:00

You are a child's kiss. Completely sweet and
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2003-04-17T10:54:00.000-07:00

so its Thursday...and we don't have school!! Thank goodness. But neway, everything is going pretty good...getting excited about this board meeting I'm gonna speak at on Monday. I have a feeling its gonna go really well. And if it doesn't oh well, at least we tried. But yah, things are pretty dull around herr right now...I have to work tonight from 4 till 9 then we're going out and bout. We're going to the FCA thing tommorrow to hunt easter eggs and then Jeff, Mandie, Shauna, me, and Ally are going out to see a movie and then going to Jonesys. Fun fun..! Well kids, I have to go get dressed and clean my room before the girls come ova tonight and then I'm off to work! Peace.